This year my Father’s Day was different, life changing, and uncomfortable. My husband, our girls, my in-loves, and I took a visit to the cemetery to visit my father-in love’s grave. Let me warn you that I was all the way uncomfortable and sad in the car riding to the cemetery because I knew that this would be a time of tears and I have never walked in a cemetery. When we arrived at the cemetery, we did not find his tombstone right away so we decided to break into groups and look. I instantly became uncomfortable as I thought of how I would be walking on top of dead people.
As my husband and I searched for his father’s tombstone, we both couldn’t help but to glance at the others along the way. We saw infants, toddlers, children, teens, young adults, middle-aged adults, and elderly adults. Neither group settled the uncomfortable feeling I had. I continued to think how I was walking around a whole lot of dead people, the earth under my feet didn’t even feel normal, and this was a first time experience for me.
As we continued to walk, I uttered loudly, “Walking with dead people just doesn’t feel right”. We all laughed, but the Spirit began to witness to my Spirit, “It is not supposed to.” We finally found my father-in love’s tombstone and had a moment of reflection. We all began to dwell on how precious life was, how short it is, and how when you truly cross over nothing matters anymore (you’ll even let people walk all over you).
On the ride back home, I kept thinking about what I said, and the Word of God came to me. For out of the abundance of your heart your mouth speaks. (Paraphrased from Luke 6:45 NKJV) This is what the Holy Spirit witnessed and downloaded into me: “Sin brings death. Are you still in your sin? Just as you were uncomfortable being around dead people, how do you think I feel when you’re in sin and not being fruitful? So you also should consider yourselves to be dead to the power of sin and alive to God through Christ Jesus. (Romans 6:11 NLT) After hearing that I had to examine myself and realize I was in sin. Even though I was fruitful in many areas of my life, there were other areas of sin I was well alive to and should have been dead too. I found myself being prideful in my knowledge and not easily forgiving others, but forgiving others with condition. Those are sins and I had to confess them, receive Jesus’ forgiveness, and depend on the power of the Spirit to be confirmed. I prayed and asked the Holy Spirit to always make me aware when my life is like a cemetery to Him.
Thank You for being a patient and long suffering Father. I thank You for giving us Your Holy Spirit. I thank You that He leads us to truth and conforms us to the image and child that You desire. I pray that You would search our hearts. Let us know of the sin we are in so that we may confess and turn back to You. Oh how we need You! Our lives need not to be like cemeteries, but should be like delivery rooms, bringing life into every life we come in contact with as well as bringing life into this dark world. Father, let our allegiance be with You and Your word and not our flesh and this world. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
I EMPOWER you to search your heart. Any sin that you find confess it, receive the work of the cross, and the forgiveness of your sins so that you would bear the life that the Father desires you to have!
How do you maintain your worship to God?
Read a related EmpowerMoment: Living Saved Is An Inside Job
Mrs. Lisa M. Purnell-Marshall is happily married to the wonderful and inspiring Antoine L. Marshall. She is the proud mother of two gorgeous girls. Her voice is one of the leading and authentic voices for breast-feeding, especially for the African-American community and Generation Y. She currently works inside of her home and plans to become a professional licensed lactation consultant in 2014. She and her family are members at Spirit of Liberty Church located in Markham, IL. Embracing the love that God has for her, Lisa labors to live an acceptable and pure life through the leading and keeping of the Holy Spirit so that her attitude, words, and actions attract the glory of God. In her free time she loves receiving manis and pedis. Her favorite promises that she find comfort and reassurance in are: Psalm34:19: “A righteous man may have many troubles, but the LORD delivers him from them all” and Luke 6:38: “Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.”