A year ago this month I ended one of the most UNHEALTHY relationships I ever allowed myself to be apart of. I allowed this man to consume my everything, leaving little room for Jesus to have His way in my life. At that time, I did not understand what it was or maybe I was just ignoring it for the two and a half years that we were together.
At the end of 2009, while talking to my cousin, I had an epiphany that rattled my spirit for sure…I realized that I didn’t like being ALONE!! I started to reminisce and discovered that I had been feeling this way for a while and it was greater than just this man! I never did anything by myself! I always felt as if I needed someone there with me no matter what it was and because this man was willing to do everything with me I allowed him to.
“I will never leave thee, or forsake thee.” (Hebrews 13:5) The whole time I was nervous about being alone my God already knew my true feelings and was right there with open arms to comfort me. I was so wrapped up in having a companion in the natural that I forgot that my spiritual Father was with me all along.
After that chat with my roommate, Jesus told me that “He has not given me the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” (2 Timothy 1:7) So I pulled it together slowly and I did what needed to be done! Over the next few months I started to pull away from this person and find my own with Jesus! I had let the fear of being by myself take over and lose sight of who was in charge the entire time. God was the pilot and I was merely a flight assistant and once I started letting Him take control things fell right in line.
Thank You again for opening up my mind, body, and spirit to shed light on my situation! I was in a very dark place and did not even know. The enemy had so much control over me that I felt I needed companionship to fill that emptiness but in reality I only needed You. You are my everything and I am content with knowing and believing that. I ask that You fill any and all voids with your LOVE that surpasses all—that AGAPE LOVE!!! What more can I ask for?! Have your way! In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
Ladies, I encourage you to realize the voids in your life that you are trying to fill with people and stuff. Instead of using things in the natural, tap into the spiritual realm and EMPOWER yourself with the uncompromising message of Jesus Christ…it’s a wonderful thing! Have a blessed week!
Ms. Latasha Sampson is an accomplished writer who is currently pursuing her Masters Degree in Human Resources Management. She is a full time Workforce Analyst with Sprint Communications in Nashville, Tennessee. Her favorite scripture is “No weapon formed against you shall prosper, and every tongue which rises against you in judgment You shall condemn” Isaiah 54:17