My son Jalen is such a wonderful kid but every school year between the months of January and March he has a serious lapse in behavior. He just goes crazy like he has forgotten that his father is an Assistant Principal, and his mom and step-mom are both teachers! He goes to school and just “lets loose” on everyone with no regard for the consequences that will surely follow. No matter how many punishments, spankings, and serious convos we have with him, he tends to revert back to the same old game of getting in trouble and lying to us about it during this time frame. It’s sad to say, but it’s like I almost have the expectation of him to “wild out” during this time period because it happens every year. I was beginning to wonder would he ever learn his lesson? On last week I said to his dad, “What are we going to do?” and in his ever patient voice he replied, “We’re going to keep working with him until he gets it right.”
“Lay not wait, O wicked man, against the dwelling of the righteous; spoil not his resting place: For a just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again: but the wicked shall fall into mischief.” (Proverbs 24: 15-16)
When I look back at my life, I recall all times that God could have given up on me. So many things I did then asked for forgiveness and did the same thing over again. At those times, God could have easily murmured when will she ever learn her lesson? I made mistake after mistake after mistake but never once did God leave me. He was there the entire time, I just didn’t realize it. I was so blinded by the shame of messing up. I felt so bad for disappointing Him. At times I was even too embarrassed to pray. I now know that no matter what I do God doesn’t love me any less. In knowing that, I’m not given a license to just do whatever I want but I am given comfort in knowing that He will never leave nor forsake me.
As for Jalen…we’re still working on him and I know in time he’ll learn his lesson and be alright!
Thank You for allowing me to know that I can always turn to You no matter what. Even when I feel ashamed You are always there to comfort me and welcome me back with open arms. I am still striving to be the woman You want me to be and even though it gets hard I am willing to keep going because I know that Your love covers me. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
Today decide to EMPOWER yourself to simply get up. You’ve spent too much time down there. GOD is waiting on you!
Shawna Dix is a mother, educator, and all around child of God. She is passionate about God, her son Jalen, family, friends, and her students. She loves teaching because it allows her to shower our youth with love and guidance. She resides in Pentagon City, Virginia and works hard educating inner city youth in Washington DC. She prides herself in being a realist. She exclaims that she is in no way, shape, form, or fashion perfect but she has accepted that she serves a perfect God who is able to do ALL things!