In February of 2010 my husband received a life changing letter in the mail, his acceptance letter into law school. I remember it like it was yesterday. We were having a lunch date and I stopped by the house to change my shoes. As I began to descend our stairs, I was literally tackled by him at the waist as he ran up to me with a crumpled letter in his hand. That was such an exciting day. We immediately started asking our seasoned attorney friends for advice about the first year. We went to marriage counseling with our Pastor because we were going to live apart for the first year, then reassess for years 2 and 3. We had “family buy-in.” Everyone was on one accord and happy. Daddy went off to school and within a few weeks it hit me, I was NOT ready for this. I cried at night, we argued, fussed, and I cried some more. He was ready to quit because the thought of our stress was too much on him. But through God’s strength we’ve made it through even more in tune with each other now then we were before.
So now what about year 2, Lord? After a few months and weeks of discussion, the family decision was made for me and our daughter to move down with him while he finished school. I should be excited right? Well kind of…I am overjoyed at fact that I will see him more, our daughter won’t cry for him as much and I may have the opportunity to do school full time as well. So why am I so hesitant? It’s because I began to consider who actually quits their stable, progressive, challenging, full of benefits, top of my A game kinda job to move to a city that’s new, that I don’t like, and have no friends. When I asked this, God said: “the faithful do.” Whoa…really God? Because I’m feeling a tad wobbly right now and the future isn’t certain. My entire adult life was established here. As I went on reflecting, God brought me to two stories in His word. “God told Abram: “Leave your country, your family, and your father’s home for a land that I will show you. I’ll make you a great nation and bless you. I’ll make you famous; you’ll be a blessing. I’ll bless those who bless you; those who curse you I’ll curse. All the families of the Earth will be blessed through you.”(Genesis 12:1-3) Now I don’t know if God plans to birth a nation from me (not right now God, wink!) but I do know He has placed me on a mission of ministry to bless others beyond the walls of Huntsville, AL.
But I was still a tad hesitant and feeling kind of strange. He went on to remind me of this story: “Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them (the disciples), walking on the lake. When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear. But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.” “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.” “Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!” Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?” And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.” (Matthew 14:22-33)
God was saying to me:“Yes, this is indeed Me doing and handling this situation; you just need to get out of the boat and walk. It will be windy, stormy, and maybe even tornadic, but you have to trust Me.” God is now asking you and me, if we trust Him to walk on water even during the storm? His word tells us not to doubt, “for without faith it is impossible to please him.” (Hebrews 11:6)
Thank You for always holding my hand, even in the storm. Thank You for being a stable foundation even when it’s windy. God help me to trust You when I can’t trace You. Give me boldness to step out into unknown territories to proclaim Your name, knowing that you already have the situation worked out. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
Is there an area of your life where you need to activate faith? I EMPOWER you today to walk by faith and not by what the situation looks like. God tells us in Ephesians 1:11 “In him we were also chosen,having been predestined according to the plan of him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of his will.” Step out on faith and watch God protect you, even in the seas of life.
As a professional, Mrs. Khalilah Burton is College Biology Instructor. She is also currently pursuing a Doctorate of Education in Higher Ed and Community College Leadership. Khalilah is passionate about her faith journey and uses this key scripture as her inspiration: “But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.” Hebrews 11:6. She teaches Young Adult Bible Study and Sunday School and also serves as a guest speaker and panelist for various events for women and Christian empowerment. Khalilah resides in Huntsville, Alabama with her wonderful husband Donald Burton, Jr. and their energetic three year old daughter where they attend St. Luke Christian Church.