My post today is a little different. As Mother’s Day approaches this weekend, I would just like to send a letter to mine:
It’s hard to believe that it has been 10 years since you lost your battle with cancer. I was sitting here the other day thinking about us. I recalled something special that you told me and I smiled. I then began to think of all the great times we shared together. The lessons you taught me have stuck with me. Everyone tells me I’m just like you. I take it as a compliment and tell them that I can only wish to be half the woman that you were.
So many things happen in my life day in and day out that cause me to want to just pick up the phone and call you but I know I can’t. I remember being angry with God for a while. I was so upset that He allowed you to die. We had been through so much together for over 20 years. I needed you and I didn’t understand why He would take you away from me. I guess I was just being selfish. After holding all my anger and grief inside I finally let it go.
“Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.” Matthew 5:4 NIV
I’m sorry for waiting 9 years to visit your grave. I just couldn’t do it. My heart was hurting so bad. I could not face the fact once again that you are really gone. Standing over that grave again made it all too real for me. With God’s help though, I am making it through! My heart will forever yearn for you. I will never let you go. The bond between a mother and her daughter is something that not even death can break.
I think perhaps the best thing you gave me is a foundation to build my life on, which is Christ Jesus. As I close this letter I am allowing the tears to fall, not in sadness but in joy knowing that one day I will see you again. You will forever be my hero. I vow to continue to live by the principles that you taught me and to live and love life.
I love you forever Mommy.
Your only daughter,
I ask that You continue to work on me. Continue to heal my heart. Please remove the veil of sorrow and sadness that seems to creep up on me. Cover me with Your love and provide comfort for me. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
Today I EMPOWER you to find the strength to ask GOD to HEAL your heart from the sadness of a loss. May He provide COMFORT to you and bring PEACE to your life.
Shawna Dix is a mother, educator, and all around child of God. She is passionate about God, her son Jalen, family, friends, and her students. She loves teaching because it allows her to shower our youth with love and guidance. She resides in Pentagon City, Virginia and works hard educating inner city youth in Washington DC. She prides herself in being a realist. She exclaims that she is in no way, shape, form, or fashion perfect but she has accepted that she serves a perfect God who is able to do ALL things!