A few years ago I was promoted on my job. I thought I had arrived because I had become a leader in the field that I love. Receiving a pay increase wasn’t a bad incentive either. You know my head was in the clouds, but I wasn’t cocky; I just felt like that was the beginning of the rest of my life. I was sadly mistaken.
The first day I walked into my office and looked sadly at my desk in the corner. I quickly got over it because I figured I wouldn’t be spending much time sitting there anyway. Although I heard about bad spirits and demons prior to this new job, I never experienced them. My partner did not accept me, she would not receive me and at first that hurt my feelings. People who really know me realize that I am hard-core on the outside but I am soft and sensitive on the inside. I prayed about the negativity but nothing changed. I prayed a little harder but nothing changed. Therefore, I decided to take matters into my own hands. If you can’t beat them, join them. I became nasty and negative.
Many mornings I would walk into my job jubilant and excited about life. As soon as I would enter the office, I would become nasty and attitudinal. I love to talk and have fun but I mastered being “stank.” I decided to give the job up but my boss would not remove me from that position. I asked God again, “Why can’t I leave this situation?” I still did not receive an answer, so I thought. Ladies, nothing changed! I became stressed out and I didn’t realize what stress does. I gained 50lbs., developed acne and I was simply going down like the Titanic. God led me to Romans 12:2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.(NIV) You know I failed my test. While I was ready to fight, God was trying to humble me and show me that everybody wasn’t going to treat me that way that I treated them. He was showing me that I couldn’t expect everybody to like me but I had to learn to stand up against adversity. He led me to another scripture: We are persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. (2 Corinthians 4:9 NIV)
Despite what I was going through, God was trying to get me to realize that I could be successful because I was made for that situation and that job. I felt like I was in a sinking ship and I couldn’t keep my head above water. I felt like the disciples: That day when evening came, he said to his disciples, “Let us go over to the other side.” Leaving the crowd behind, they took him along, just as he was, in the boat. There were also other boats with him. A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped. Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke him and said to him, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?” He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet! Be still!” Then the wind died down and it was completely calm. He said to his disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?” They were terrified and asked each other, “Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!” (Mark 4: 34-38 NIV) All the time I thought I could calm the storm but God was all over it. God was showing me that despite what it looked like I was made for this. He was molding me and teaching me that I had to go through that situation, at that particular moment, so that I could learn that no weapon formed against me shall prosper. (Isaiah 54:17 KJV )
There were many people giving me advice and suggestions so I assumed that the devil was trying to confuse me and make me think I was the weakest link. I wanted to be vengeful but God reminded me of His word: “Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” says the Lord. (Romans 12:19 NIV)
What I thought was the worst experience of my life actually was one of my greatest learning experiences. God was taking me out of my comfort zone and He was testing me to see if I would crack under pressure. When I cracked, He didn’t give up on me; so just like any test I studied and I prayed and I started passing the tests. By the end of the school year my partner and I were cordial and I even prayed for her new position at another school. I learned that if God blessed you with it, you don’t need to change who you are to get what you want. If you stay true to God and don’t change (unless you are changing for Him) the sky is the limit. Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us. (Hebrews 12:1 KJV) I was made for this!
Please forgive me, God, for times that I tried to calm the storm. Thank You for allowing me the opportunity to go through test and being patient enough to allow me to pass the test. Thank You for teaching me that regardless of what I go through that You have ordered my steps. I am grateful that You know exactly what I need and when I need it, in order to walk into my destiny. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
Ladies, today I EMPOWER you to treat people as you want to be treated and not how they treat you. I want you to not give up in whatever situations you are facing. I want you to know that you were made for that situation. God is trying to move you out of your comfort zone in order to move you into your destiny. Tell yourself “I was made for this!”
Mrs. Keviyona Ray is an ordained minister and co-pastor in training of The Christ For All People International Church. She is passionate about sharing the word of God with everyone she encounters. As a professional, Keviyona is a teacher for Chicago Public Schools. She loves her ministry of teaching and changing children’s lives. She is a devoted wife and mother of a wonderful daughter. Two of her favorite scriptures are Jeremiah 1: 5 – Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee, and I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations and Proverbs 29:18 – Where there is no vision, the people perish: but he that keepeth the law, happy is he.