Contentment, Honesty/Truth, Inspirational, Miscellaneous, Self-Esteem

Invisible Me

When I walk into a room, people usually notice. I have a pretty large personality and a big smile. Although sometimes that smile becomes a big “unit” on my face. Whether I am in take over mode or chill mode, rarely do I go unnoticed. I’m 5’1” but I walk tall and act like I “own it.” I’ve never known people to question my self-esteem because I can put on quite a show…or at least I thought.

My Happy ME!

Your beauty should not come from outward adornment … Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight. (I Peter 3:3-4 NIV)

In a recent conversation, someone broke down many of the non-verbal and sometimes verbal things that illustrate some of my unhappiness on the inside. Granted we all have some bad days that we feel less than our best but what happens when those days turn into years. What happens when we let our inner beauty become tarnished with insecurities?

As I enter the room walking tall, my “invisible me” walks in too, head slightly bent but holding up signs for all to see. “This dress would look so much better minus 20lbs. What’s that…my girtle isn’t working?” “I really need a new purse cause this was so last season.” “My car is so out of date.” “Someone, please show me some attention!”

My invisible me is taking over! She questions my looks, my abilities and my accomplishments. She is killing me softly from the inside out.

I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. (Philippians 4:12 NIV)

This is how I look without makeup
And with no bra my ninny’s sag down low
My hair ain’t never hung down to my shoulders
And it might not grow
Ya’ never know

I got a little pot in my belly
So now a days my figure ain’t so fly
My dress ain’t cost nothin’ but seven dollars 
But I made it fly
    -Erykah Badu

I have made an executive decision over my life. I am going to be content whether I have it or I don’t have it; whether I lose 0lbs this week or 2lbs this week; whether he calls me back or doesn’t call me back; whether my hair is long or short; whether there is money in the bank or it’s empty; whether I get the job or not; whether I get the recognition I deserve or someone else gets it; whether I get the new car I want or continue to roll in this some-timed car; whether my family and friends are with me or against me. I am burning all of the invisible signs and learning daily to work on “issues” without letting those issues control who I am as a person and dictate my life. From now on I want my invisible me to match the same confidence that I portray on the outside because I recognize that I am fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14 KJV)

Dear Daddy, 

Thank You for taking the time to make ME! Thank You for every blood vessel, capillary, microscopic cell, vein, organ and bone in my body. Your detail left nothing to chance and according to Your word in Psalms 139:14 I am a marvelous work because I am created by You. When I am feeling down about myself, remind me of who YOU are so that I will know who I am. Help me to focus and discipline to change the things in my life that need to change but also help me to be content as I work to change them.  Help me to pay attention to my “invisible me” so that she is fully representative of the awesomeness that is You and that You have created in me. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

Today I EMPOWER you to do a self –check. What does your “invisible me” say about you? If it be God’s will, work on changing areas of your life where you have issues. As you make progress and even have some setbacks, I EMPOWER you to be content as you let the light from above radiate from the inside out.  

Ms. Chancee` Lundy currently resides in Atlanta, GA and is an entrepreneur as she is the co-owner of Nspiregreen, LLC an environmental consulting firm. She is also a dedicated daughter, sister, friend, community servant, and child of God. She is passionate about causes that truly uplift the community. One of her favorite scriptures is Hebrews 11:6: And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

18 thoughts on “Invisible Me”

  1. WOOOOOOW! So you are now officially my twin, well sort of, lol. Your beauty should not come from outward adornment … Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight. (I Peter 3:3-4 NIV) I have been doing a self assessment lately on my inner and outer beauty and never saw this scripture, at least I don’t recall it. I am so empowered to continue working on this inside creature. I found a lot of issues are starting to surface, but it helps to know I am ridding myself of some things. I absolutely love this Chancee! Being content in EVERY situation is a goal I indeed want to reach.

    Thank you for this!

    1. Honestly Kay when I met you I saw a lot of you in me (some of it was my present at the time and some of it was my past) and many of the things I “thought” I knew are being revealed as we write these blogs. I am thankful the opportunity to get to know you even better. I gleaned the lesson of learning to be content from your blog “It Ain’t What It Look Like” … you had a different spin but for some reason I took that message…work on you but don’t live in misery. We are all working to change the inside man because that’s what counts to Him.

  2. Chanceeeee!! 😀
    LOVED IT!!!! I’m “new” in my christian walk as some would say so I’m going through the sorting of old behaviors, checking myself on how I handle certain things, etc. but THANK YOU!! for reminding me to BE CONTENT in every season/time frame as I work through my changes; this is something I’ll hold close to my heart. I just want less of me and more of HIM on the inside, and I know that more of God on the inside will help me with my issues on the outside. Beautiful and wonderful post!! Thank you my Sista!!!!!! God bless you!!!

    1. Dee you’re welcome and I am glad that you were blessed by this post. Being a servant of God “old or new” is challenging in trying to let go of those things that are of us and keeping those things that are of God. We are constantly striving towards perfection but we do have to learn contentment as he instructs us to be anxious for nothing. Bless you Dee!

  3. Wow! I ab-so-lute-ly love this post. I am currently dealing witih being content no matter what. I bookmarked this so that I can go back and read this when it seems like that “inner me” decideds so show up. Thank you for sharing!

    1. Thanks LaKeisha! I need to bookmark this too. My “invisible me” shows up when I don’t know it that’s why I am working to change that person so that my outside and my inside are one in the same.

    1. Yes honey she exists and shows up to the party whether you want her there or not…so you need to make sure she is the best reflection of you and not someone that seeks to tarnish your image. You’re Welcome!

  4. This post really helped me, I grew up in church so I have learned and perfected the “look” of contentment but I am daily working on living out genuine contentment and believe you me, it is soooo much easier said than done! I’ve been acting content for so long, I hadn’t realized just how DIScontented I was… But GLORY be to God for showing me ME then helping me to grow up and experience REAL contentment! Thank you again for this post!

    1. Katrina, you are welcome. For a long time I thought I was content. Only recently, am I realizing how DIScontented I am. There are many things that I think I buried but those things never die they just end up manifesting in other ways in our life. I am glad that God has shown you and helped you and I pray that he will continue to do the same for me. 😉

  5. Thanks Chancee for this post. You must have been reading my mind. I was thinking about all the things that I want and what I’m not content with as far as my appearance is concerned and so forth. As I was having a talk with God he told me to be happy with the way I am and what I already have. So your post and talking to God has notofied me a little more to be grateful for who I am and what I have right now.

    1. You’re welcome Ms. Amber. There are always things that we wish we could change about ourselves. Some things are naturally within our power and some are not. We have to learn to be grateful just as we are (with no makeup) as we work to improve ourselves. He wants us to be happy and its hard to be happy when you are ungrateful.

  6. Chancee this word is for me! Girl you was all in my business!lol I take pride in being a gorgeous and classy “big girl!” People are always given me compliments and I also smile all the time but baby people don’t know my story. I am now confronting my inside and God is right now transforming my inside to mirror my outside! Thanks again

    1. Testify!!! I am sooo with you. If you only knew my story. I know that many people can relate because many times I talk to women who I “assume” have it all together and realize that they are one crisis away from falling off. I pray that as we walk in this mask we can begin to heal from the inside out.

    1. Thank you Hassanah!! I am glad you liked them. I enjoy receiving these refreshing messages everyday so please make sure you tell your friends about them.

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