Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.” (2 Corinthians 1:3-4 NIV)
I look in the mirror and I see an ugly face and skin. My cheeks are full of pimples and I have hair on my chin. I don’t have eyebrows that evenly grow. My teeth are so crooked, I’m embarrassed for them to show.
The more I stare I see imperfection at its best. I don’t like what’s under my shirt; I wish I didn’t have these breasts. My mid section ain’t so smooth and my thighs aren’t either. My gate isn’t the most gracious, sometimes I seem to teeter.
I never had many friends because I never fit in. My social skills aren’t the best, so I prefer to stay shut-in. My outward thoughts have grown like vines, deep rooted within me they have become intertwined. So to the point that all I see is an ugly person in the mirror staring back at me.
I have no life, no drive to finish school. I might as well believe what the mean girls say and proclaim that I’m a fool. At work, I wonder how I ended up here; working with these people that are the least bit sincere. In and out of my office chair, the women come and they go. Only to get a welfare check and leaving to do, only the Lord knows.
Today was interesting I saw my client Sherry. She was downcast and depressed and didn’t seem too happy. For some strange reason she began to pour, out her soul of disappointments, insecurities, and cried some more. I felt very strange, almost like I knew, the pain she was feeling, because within me, it had already grew.
I picked up the Book that I read from time to time, and a still strong voice came from within in me, because I knew those words weren’t mine.
“I know your road has been rough, but the Father is there for you. He sees the pain and agony you feel but He has a message for you in it too. The smile you hide out of shame, has been painted with my grace to comfort other’s pains. Your face, to you, may seem unkempt, but your uniqueness helps people to remember you and the aura you’ve kept. See you are an extension of me, I don’t walk on the ground. I use you and your quirkiness to comfort the lost and to spread my love around. I can’t clutter your life with friends because your purpose is much higher. I’ve called you to be my messenger, to make someone’s day that much brighter. Your job is an assignment, ordained by me. To see if you are ready, to handle what proceeds. I didn’t allow you to finish college because your focus was all wrong. Had I not awakened you, you would have kept singing that same “woe is me” song. So here I’ve faced you with you and now the time has come. You have a choice to either run and hide, or use your past to help someone.”
Immediately she vanished and was nowhere in sight. My first thought was to run, because of my initial fright. But there was that voice again, so still yet sincere that said, “That was you in that chair talking to me. See, you are one of my angels that Earth so desperately needs. Go forth and hold your head high, you already had wings. But for some strange reason you suppressed them with insecurities. All of your life I’ve been there for you, but there’s a Sherry out there waiting to feel words of healing from you.”
Ladies, we all have issues and insecurities. We have those “Why me Lord moments” and sometimes, “Why not me?” But as I sit here and type this EmpowerMoment, I want you to step outside of yourself and look for an opportunity. An opportunity to tell someone that God made them in a special way for a special purpose. If He can love me, hide my faults, and ease all of my fears, He can definitely do it for them.
Sometimes I just get into a pity party and wonder why You made me the way You did. But then I have to remember, the trials I am going through are so that someone else can relate, can feel comforted, and can experience healing through the restoration You’ve granted me. Help me not to miss it! Help me to be ready for her, when she comes to sit in my chair. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
Ladies, I EMPOWER you today to realize that God doesn’t see you like you see you; He sees your heart, your past, present, and future. I EMPOWER you to walk up to that sister today and EMPOWER her with God’s love. I’m sure she needs it.
Poem inspired by Psalms 139
As a professional, Mrs. Khalilah Burton is College Biology Instructor. She is also currently pursuing a Doctorate of Education in Higher Ed and Community College Leadership. Khalilah is passionate about her faith journey and uses this key scripture as her inspiration: “But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” (Isaiah 40:31 KJV) She teaches Young Adult Bible Study and Sunday School and also serves as a guest speaker and panelist for various events for women and Christian empowerment. Khalilah resides in Millbrook, Alabama with her wonderful husband Donald Burton, Jr. and their energetic three-year old daughter. They attend St. Luke Christian Church. Check out Khalilah’s Christian weight loss blog here.