Two weeks ago I was preparing to head back to school to complete my last year of my undergraduate education. As I wrapped up my summer internship, packed my belongings and finalized my fall schedule, it was quite a stressful time. I called around to several of my family members (weeks in advance) to see if anyone could help me drive to school; all I got was excuse after excuse. I began to get frustrated and eventually was heartbroken at this so called “family” I was born into. My father told me that he would not be sacrificing a day off work only to have my car break down on the side of the road. I literally wanted to choke him through the phone. I was furious! I had so many questions that I wanted him to answer: Aren’t parents supposed to sacrifice for their children? So you would rather have me stranded on the side of the road by myself? What made me even more upset was that he had NEVER sacrificed anything for me since I was born. After all, my friends’ parents were driving them down to school, taking them grocery shopping and making sure they were settled and ready to begin the school year. Year after year I struggled by myself to move my things from place to place, buy books, school supplies and groceries. I had to go back and read my own EmpowerMoment, All I Need Is You, to calm down.
So there was no getting around it; I was stuck driving from Chicago to North Carolina by myself. That was something I had never experienced before. Fear began to overtake my body. I was so terrified that I postponed my original departure date for another day. The night before my 832 mile trip, I tossed and turned all night. Fear was stabbing at my heart.
“God blesses those who mourn, for they will be comforted.” (Matthew 5:4 NLT)
The morning that I was leaving, my cousin fought in the spirit for me and a sense of peace began to settle over me. I jumped in my car, took a deep breath, prayed and started the engine to my ’99 Ford Taurus. I was off to North Carolina! My car had given me a few minor problems during the summer but the ride back to school was smooth sailing. The weather was beautiful and before I knew it I was 609 miles into my trip.
“So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you.” (Deuteronomy 31:6 KJV)
I arrived in North Carolina right before sunset. As I unlocked my door and stepped into my apartment, a warm, cinnamon scent welcomed me. I was immediately convicted.
“Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are?” (Matthew 6:26 NLT)
I was highly upset at my biological father when my heavenly Father had taken care of me just fine. There were many times I didn’t have any money but somehow my rent was paid and my ’99 Ford held up well. I burst into tears as I walked into my room. My room was fully decorated, my bed was nicely made, I had two closets full of clothes (some with the tags still on them) and I had never gone a day hungry. Although I don’t have two loving, physical parents, God has divinely connected me to people who want the best for my life. Despite the many life obstacles, (and I mean MANY) I was entering my senior year, securing my place as an Honor’s student…BUT GOD!
I magnify Your holy name! Thank You for showing me that You are my provider, my Jehovah Jireh. You are the best Father a child could ever have. Thank You for convicting my spirit to help my see the bigger picture and to understand that You will get the glory out of my life! And when I tell my story it will speak and say didn’t anyone do this BUT GOD! In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
Ladies, today I EMPOWER you to be thankful for your BUT GOD experiences. Praise Him for the many overlooked blessings. Remember that every life obstacle is to elevate you higher in Him. God is going to get the glory out of your life!
Ms. Chaunte’ Tate is an undergraduate senior pursuing a career in journalism. She is passionate about the spiritual advancements of all followers of Christ. Her favorite scripture is “The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge but fools despise wisdom and instruction” Proverbs 1:7