I remember being in college, praying with a group and being chastised by an adult who told us that our prayers were just bouncing off of the ceilings. We were sorely offended and it only made us pray harder. Well today that is how I feel. I feel as though I have been praying but those prayers are going no further then the room I am in. They seem to get more repetitive and I wonder if He is even listening. It’s become so frustrating that I have found myself stopping before I am done or just sitting in silence mad because I can’t feel a connection.
Out of the depths I cry to you, LORD; Lord, hear my voice. Let your ears be attentive to my cry for mercy. (Psalm 130:1-2 NIV)
In an attempt to make right this wrong, I began to rise at 5:00 AM to have my daily devotionals. At first it started off well but over time it fizzled. It seemed as though I would read the Bible but the words weren’t moving me. I wasn’t getting understanding and it was if I was reading Greek. In terms of praying, how many times did God need to hear that I want a husband, a family, financial blessings etc? I am sure He is well aware as these make up 99.99% of all of my prayers. It seems as though every thing I am doing for God has become routine, even writing this blog. It’s my fault. After all, I realize that I haven’t been doing what it takes to have a genuine relationship with Him: spending quality time with Him, talking to Him daily, eating the food He has prepared for me (Bible) or getting to know His family (church). I wanted our relationship to blossom; yet, I have provided no water to make it grow. Although I recognize my weaknesses, I also know that I have to be steadfast because the enemy doesn’t want me to study, to pray or to ask for what I want.
Then Jesus said to them, “Suppose you have a friend, and you go to him at midnight and say, ‘Friend, lend me three loaves of bread; a friend of mine on a journey has come to me, and I have no food to offer him.’ And suppose the one inside answers, ‘Don’t bother me. The door is already locked, and my children and I are in bed. I can’t get up and give you anything.’ I tell you, even though he will not get up and give you the bread because of friendship, yet because of your shameless audacity he will surely get up and give you as much as you need. “So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened. (Luke 11:5-9 NIV)
God is always listening but sometimes we have to be bold with our requests and have shameless audacity. We have to put in the relationship what we want to get out of it. As a matter of fact, I have found that God often gives us more than what we deserve because what we put in is often minimal compared to what we get. I know that I am not the only one that goes through these cycles; but I pray that I am always able to recognize when there has been a shift in the relationship so that I can repair the breach.
Forgive me for the damage I have done to our relationship. Draw me closer to You! Thank You for letting me feel the disconnect so I know that I have created a breach and can repair it. Remind me to pray without ceasing and to hide Your word in my heart. Give me understanding when I read Your word and help me to see the applicability for my life. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
Today I EMPOWER you to examine your relationship with God. Do you feel as though your prayers are bouncing off the ceiling? Do you feel like your relationship has become routine and not fulfilling? Recognize the breach you have created and work to repair it but don’t stop praying because God is always listening.
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Ms. Chancee` Lundy currently resides in Atlanta, GA and is a small business co-owner of Nspiregreen, LLC an environmental consulting firm. She is also a dedicated daughter, sister, friend, community servant, and child of God. She is passionate about causes that truly uplift the community. One of her favorite scriptures is Hebrews 11:6: And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.