Abortion, God's Love, Grief, Self Forgiveness, Sin, Spiritual Therapy

No Title Necessary

I took one last glance at the clock before the doctor instructed me to start the countdown.  I did as I was told and began 10…9…8…7…6…5… The next thing I remembered was waking up in the recovery room.  The procedure was over and my anesthesia had worn off yet only twenty minutes had elapsed.  It wasn’t until the nurse came to check on me that I remembered exactly what I had done… I had just aborted my unborn child! 

I found out that I was pregnant a month prior and that very day I made up my mind that I was NOT having a baby out of wedlock.  I was of age where I could have taken on the responsibility without a doubt but I was too selfish to do so.  I was in a relationship with the father but I refused to go through this struggle with a man I had only been dating a few months.  Basically, I came up with every reason as to why this was the best solution to my problem but truthfully the real battle was yet to come.

“Jesus replied ‘No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom.’”(Luke 9:62 NIV) I was certain that I had handled my business but I was having the hardest time forgiving myself and forgetting it ever happened.  The enemy used the un-forgiveness in my heart to infect every aspect of my life.  I was still in a dead end relationship because I felt as if I owed him something because I never told him about the abortion.  I was finishing my last semester in school but I was clueless as to what was my next move would be in this game called life.  To top it off, I let God down and went against His Word in more ways than one.  However, as the above scripture stated, being consumed with looking in the past promotes missed opportunities to do kingdom work.  It is imperative to remember that we must not misconstrue the underlying message of the Word–our past does not dictate our future but we must NOT intentionally disobey God because of His promises. 

“No, brothers and sisters, I am still not all I should be, but I am focusing all my energies on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I strain to reach the end of the race and receive the prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us up to heaven.” (Philippians 3:13-14 NLT)

Ladies, I allowed the devil to control my life for years because I was afraid to forgive myself when God had already forgiven me.  I prolonged my walk into my destiny because I was determined to dwell on a bad decision.  Once I was able to shake the stronghold the devil had on me I was able to rejoice in the fact that I am not what I have done or the situations I’ve been through but rather I represent where I am headed- PROSPERITY!!

Dear Daddy,

Thank You for forgiving me even when I found it hard to forgive myself.  You have always been there for me and words can not express the joy that alone gives me.  Please help me keep my head forward, not looking back, so that I may be certain that I am doing the work needed to advance Your Kingdom.  No longer will I be a prisoner to my past but rather I am victorious because of YOU!  Thank You Daddy!!  In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

I encourage you to EMPOWER one another to leave the past behind and walk BOLDLY into your future!  Ladies, put your chin up, stick your chest out, and keep your back straight for the time is now to accept the calling on your life. No more pity parties with the enemy because its time to celebrate Jesus!!!  Be Blessed!!! 🙂

P.S. Since today is my last day as an EmpowerMoment writer,  I just want to thank all of the readers for allowing me to share my testimony with you. This experience has probably helped me just as much as I endeavored to help each of you. Being transparent has allowed me to walk into my destiny and completely line up with God’s will. Thank you for being apart of this journey. MUAH!

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Ms. Latasha Sampson is an accomplished writer who is currently pursuing her Masters Degree in Human Resources Management.  She resides in Nashville, Tennessee where she is a faithful member of Mt. Zion Baptist Church.  Her favorite scripture is “No weapon formed against you shall prosper, and every tongue which rises against you in judgment You shall condemn.” Isaiah 54:17

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24 thoughts on “No Title Necessary”

  1. It’s interesting that you wrote this. This morning my daughter had a break down, screaming, (because she couldn’t fix her shirt, lol) and in tears she fell to me and wept, “Mommy I messed up.” I felt so bad for her because she was distraught, and then I proceeded to tell her that people mess up all of the time, but its what you do next that counts.

    We mess up a lot in life. Sometimes we just can’t seem to get it right. Yes God chastises us, and there are consequences to our sins and bouts of disobedience, but as you mentioned in your post, His love NEVER fails. I am so glad you shared this today. I know it may have been a tough one to write, but our weaknesses help to make others strong.

    God bless you and I pray that God continues to restore you towards prosperity. Big things Poppin!!!

    1. Yes ma’am! It was a difficult one to write but it has been on my heart for quite sometime and it was time for me to release it in hopes of blessing someone else. Thanks for the encouraging words Kay!

    1. SPEAK IT into my life Ms. Amber! Your kind words mean a lot to me! But all good things must come to an end but I’m never gone to far… I will pop in every now and again:)

  2. Dear Heavenly Father, We thank you for Latasha and her courage to share her story. I know that as a result of her obedience to You, so many women are going to be set free. I pray that you cover her and everything related to her in the blood of Jesus. We come against any retaliation and backlash as a result of her sharing her testimony. Bless her richly for sacrifice. In the name of Jesus, amen!

    Tasha, I am so happy that you decided to share this story as I know that so many of us can relate to it. Im sure that it wasnt easy, as Kay mentioned, but you have truly used your platform to deliver so many young women and God is pleased with you.

    We have been blessed by your contributions here and we hope you’ll consider dropping in every now and then for a Single in the City post!

    Love ya soooo much and Im excited about your future!!!! 🙂

    1. AMEN sis!!! Thanks for the prayer… LORD knows I needed it! And of course, I will be back… family gets priority as writers 🙂 The marketing team is in FULL force!

    1. Truth be told i that is exactly why I wrote it- To be set free by my testimony! Amazingly I recv’d the most comments ever… Obedience is totally rewarding for me and EM readers!

  3. Tosha thank you for sharing this EM. It is truly encouraging and reminds me of what a dear friend told me when I was in need of encouragement:

    For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38-39

    This scripture blesses me so and I am glad that she shared it. I have to repeat it when the devil comes at my head. I love you and we will miss you on here but I’m sure you’ll be back.

    1. Love you too ma’am. Thanks for that scripture it is definitely stored in my personal Bible database for reference when the time is right. It is awesome to know that God LOVES despite it all! Be blessed!

  4. Tashi!!! You will be missed. Thanks for sharing this testimony. Know that you are not alone in the decision that you made. Thank goodness that God loves us regardless of the decisions that we make! You have to feel great about that. I love you and many blessings to you in your future endeavors!

    1. Awww thanks Natalie! I am so happy and relieved that I shared this story. God has brought me such a long way that I must acknowledge my past instead of being a prisoner of it. The God we serve is a forgiving one as long as I was willing to open up and let Him in. Be Blessed!

  5. Once again, I am in awe of the honest, soul revealing, life changing moments the writers share on EmpowerMoment. As said above, trust that this message was received and needed by so many. I knew of girls who had abortions in high school. Many are now women who are living with the guilt and shame of having made that decision. Be Blessed Tasha and continue to let go and let God.

    1. Soul revealing… I LOVE it! As a new writer you will find that you will run from certain topics until you can’t run anymore and have NO choice but to reveal your soul:) But believe me its so refreshing to face it, write about it, praise God for the trial, and rejoice that its over! Be Blessed and welcome to the team!

  6. Awesome post!! I appreciate the transparency! I feel like we as “believers” cheat others out of their deliverance because we’re too ashamed of the things that God kept us through. Blessings on what’s to come Tasha!

    1. AMEN Tiffany! That is so true and I have even been guilty of that in the past until I looked at MY past and it wasn’t all glitter and gold. Not only are we set free by our testimonies but others are as well. As much as I wanted to avoid this topic God kept putting it on my heart because somebody somewhere could relate and needed to read it… Glad I obeyed! Be Blessed and thanks for the blessings!

  7. AMEN!!! AMEN!!! AMEN!!!! I am in tears because I was riding the bus this morning and saw a little boy around the age of 2. I instantly thought about the child that I aborted this past Dec., about how it could have been the little boy that I eventually want to have. I also thought about how my life would be now if I chose to go through with the pregnancy. I have forgiven myself for this, but I thank GOD for the reminder from time to time because it makes me want to better myself even more. My abortion has been my inspiration to realizing that I HAVE to develop a BETTER relationship with HIM. I LOVE YOU Tasha for sharing this with us. I know this is your last day, but girl you went out with a bang.

    1. Thanks girlie! Oh believe me I have had those days and just like you said it makes me press into the spirit even more. We must remember that our past simply adds credibility to our story… We have to be able to look back over our life and see God’s work in our lives. Be Blessed and know I’m only a call away.

  8. Im always late! But I just wanted to say that even mothers who HAD the child can sometimes feel guilt for even thinking of abortion. When I did hold my son for the first time I cried because I realized that I loved this little person more than myself. I felt instant guilt for even allowing the thought to enter my mind.everyone says what they would do, but nobody knows until they are in a situation like that. My dad always said dont make permenant descions based on a temporary situation, we let the devil trick us into thinking theres no way this or that can be done. But thats limiting a God who created this world out of nothing! It amazes me how we forget that…i feel an EM off that lol anyway sorry for the book, but I just wanted to thank you for sharing not just this story but every story you have written to bring Him glory! Be blessed.

    1. Thanks lady! At the end of the day that’s what its all about… bringing HIM glory. We are glad to have you on the team and clearly I helped you develop an EM topic 🙂

  9. Wishing you much health, happiness and joy and may God continue to bless you and show you all the amazing places He’s going to take you to. Thank you for this raw, honest post!! I know you’v blessed many readers out there who needed to hear this specific word. You’ll be missed but we all know God is directing your steps so step boldly!! God bless you always my Sister!!!!

  10. AMEN! Thank you for the encouragement. I prayed before submitting in hopes that it would really speak to someone and their situation and not just air my dirty laundry. Apparently my obedience was well overdue! Be Blessed!

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