Sunday 12:00 p.m.: “Oh My God!!” *wiping tears and blowing nose* “That was such an awesome message! God really spoke through Pastor today. I have truly had an encounter with God. I am FREE!! I’ve been DELIVERED!! My life will NEVER be the same!!”
Wednesday 3:00 p.m.: “What did I just do? Why do I keep doing this? What is wrong with me? I know better; why do I keep making the same mistakes??”
More times than I can remember, this has been my experience. I got to the point where I asked myself, “What happened? Didn’t I have an awesome church service Sunday? What about my encounter with God?” I even asked myself, “Was it real? Was I really laid out on the altar? I cried my eyes out! I felt so free when I got out of church! WHAT HAPPENED? How did I get caught up in this foolishness AGAIN?”
I prayed and asked God what was happening; I KNEW I loved God and I really wanted to live a life that was pleasing to Him. I desired to live in His perfect will. I went to church every Sunday and got a word that spoke directly to me! EVERY Sunday, I really meant it when I said I am going to stop doing this or that and I am going to start doing something God wanted me to do. The rest of Sunday I was good. Monday and Tuesday I was alright, but around Wednesday I started tripping! Thursday, I went to bible study so that carried me Friday but Saturday, I was tripping again. WHAT WAS WRONG WITH ME?? Why couldn’t I get this right??
God led me to Matthew 13, The Parable of the Sower. As I read I came to the scripture that fit my plight, “…some [seed] fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. It sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. But when the sun came up, the plants were scorched and they withered because they had no ROOT…” Matthew 13:5-6 NIV
Honestly, after reading this scripture I was slightly offended! “What do you mean I have no root??” I am saved, sanctified, I speak in tongues etc. etc. When I got done with all of my grandstanding I had to take a VERY honest look at my walk with God. After looking at myself I saw a not so pretty picture. The only time I really spent with God was at church. I did not really pray for more than a minute or so in the morning if that and I said grace with every meal and that summed up my prayer life. Studying the Bible on a daily basis was a non-existent practice in my life unless I was trying to find something specific. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks, “No wonder you keep falling, you have NO STRENGTH!!” “…man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God…”Matthew 4:4 NIV
My spirit was only being fed once a week so of course my soil was very shallow because it lacked nutrition. As a human, if you only eat once a week you will be VERY weak physically and you will fall prey to all kinds of ailments; the same is so for your spiritual self. With this revelation, I sought God to help me to grow spiritually in Him which meant not only spending more time with Him in prayer and personal worship but also learning how to feed myself daily through studying the Word of God. I am not where God wants me to be but I’m steadily moving toward being a Matthew 13:23 Christian, “…one who hears and takes in the News, and then produces a harvest beyond his wildest dreams.” MSG
Thank You for consistently answering Your little girls when we call to You. Thank You being honest and direct with us while also continuing to love us unconditionally. We love You and thank You for Your continued faithfulness and true dedication to making us everything You desire for us to be. We ask that You continue to renew us everyday and not let us be carried away by the emotionalism of church that we lose sight of what church is really for– not to tickle our emotions but to draw us closer and closer to You and make us more and more like You. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
Ladies, today I EMPOWER you to keep the fire burning in your souls. Don’t let it fizzle out only to be reignited next Sunday. I encourage you to do the following three things to keep the fire burning:
1) PRAY – Prayer is a conversation with God. I recently read an article called “Five Minutes That Could Save Your Marriage” which discussed how just having a casual face-to-face conversation with your spouse for 5 minutes each day could work wonders for your marriage. How much more is the SAVIOUR of our SOULS entitled to? And how it will deeply grow your relationship with God!
2) STUDY THE WORD – We must feed ourselves DAILY in order to be spiritually strong and fight the things the devil throws at us (see Ephesians 6:10-18)
3) BE VIGILANTE – We all know the areas in which we struggle. Yes, we are to be bold in the Lord but don’t go playing in the enemy’s camp. A well-known quote says, “If you keep knocking on the devil’s door, somebody is gonna answer you!” If you know that you struggle with fornication with a certain person, why are you answering his phone call/text message? If you know you struggle with drinking, why are you at the club? REMEMBER, the devil doesn’t play fair!
Ms. Katrina Richard is an up and coming professional residing in Chicago, Illinois. She strives to incorporate knowledge and life-skills to teenagers in her profession as a high school history teacher. Katrina is very active in her church community where she serves in the prayer ministry as well as in the nursery. She has a passion for serving in the lesser known areas of ministry because she believes every facet of ministry is important to kingdom building and spiritual development of the believers. Her favorite scripture is Jeremiah 29:11: “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”