But who are you, a human being, to talk back to God? “Shall what is formed say to the one who formed it, ‘Why did you make me like this?’” Romans 9:20 NIV
If you haven’t been around the EmpowerMoments land for a long time then you probably haven’t heard me talk about how sensitive I am. No, I don’t cry over sappy love stories or other sad movie endings. Nor do I feel my heart sink when I see an injured puppy. (Don’t judge me; it’s just not my soft spot!) However, there are just some harsh things that people can say or do to me that have the potential to really bruise my emotions. A couple of months back I was dealing with losing an important person in my life. They didn’t die or leave me but their presence in my life became almost non-existent. I felt as if they pretended like I was no longer a factor and that was very hurtful. This was a horrible situation because this was a person that I truly admired and looked up to. During the course of this traumatic period of my life, I felt that my emotions were so damaged. I remember coming home one night really fighting to hold back the tears. That immediately let me know that I was indeed hurt by the actions of the other person. (I may be hyper-sensitive but I am NOT a cry baby!) Anyway, as I lie in my bed trying to unsuccessfully stifle my tears, I began to ask God a series of questions. “Why did you make me so sensitive? Why do I feel the sting of people’s wrath so strongly? How come the harsh things that people say pierce my heart and leave a gaping hole in it? God, I really hate that I wear my feelings on my shoulder. Did you really intend for me to be this sensitive? Please help me with this!”
(I am currently in a class studying the book of Romans. Two weeks ago we studied the above passage of scripture above. I hadn’t realized at the time that my line of questioning was out of order until I came across that scripture. I thank God for His mercy on me when I am ignorant of His word–and even when I’m not ignorant and yet choose to still do what I want to.)
As I wallowed in my tears, God reassured me that He knew exactly what He was doing when He designed me, emotions and all. He reminded me that my sensitivity would allow me to reach the hearts of His people. He reminded me that only someone as sensitive as me can feel the pain of their fellow brothers and sisters and bring those burdens to Him in prayer. He promised me that He would show me how to use what He gave me and not let the negative aspects consume me. He whispered, “I knew what you needed to do the job that I was going to assign you. When I decided that you would be an intercessor, I knew a nice heaping of sensitivity would be beneficial. When I designed you to minister to women, I knew a sensitive heart would cause you to be slow to judge and quick to love. I knew just what I was doing.”
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Psalm 139:14 NIV
Isn’t it amazing that God knows exactly what we need before we can ever realize any practical use for it? I was beating myself up about allowing others’ words and/or actions to get to me and the truth of the matter is that God made me like that for His purposes! What area of your life or part of your being would you like to trade in? Before you opt for something else, consider asking God how He would like for you to use it. Your overly generous heart (even when people continually take advantage of you) could mean that He has called you to be a missionary. Your eagerness to reconcile (even when it isn’t your fault) could mean that He has destined for you to be a peacemaker among your generation. Ask Him to teach you to how to keep your emotions in balance so that you can you effectively carry out His purpose for your life.
Sometimes I don’t understand why You made me this way but I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made! This __________ issue of mine doesn’t make much sense to me. Please help me to understand the purpose for it. Help me to keep my emotions in check so that they don’t control my actions or me. God, my prayer is that You use this very thing that I think is a hindrance to edify Your kingdom and bring glory to Your name! In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
Today I EMPOWER you to embrace the woman that God made in you. Allow Him to use that part of you for His glory! EMPOWER your future by utilizing everything that He poured into you!
Mrs. Kristen Harris is a wife, mother, entrepreneur and dedicated servant. She is extremely passionate about women’s spiritual advancement, hence the founding of EmpowerMoments. As an avid reader, Kristen enjoys reading the Bible and other non-fiction pieces. Her driving inspiration is when God says to her: “For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11) She currently resides outside of Chicago, Illinois with her wonderful husband and two lovely daughters where she is an active member of New Life Covenant Church.