Forgiveness, Growth/Maturity, Trust, Trusting God

I Have Trust Issues!

How can I trust something I can’t see?

How am I supposed to let Go and let God?

Who is he/she?

Where will I be if I let this being consume me?

If I give you my heart will you break it?

If I offer you all of me will you take it?

Will you lose interest and discard of me like all the rest?

If temptation smacks you in the face will you pass the test?

Why are you being so nice to me?

Are your intentions pure or tainted?

Will you be good for me, or am I too jaded to see it?

There is no such thing as “good people” anymore so who are you?

What does it feel like to trust someone?

What does it look like to trust God?

How does trust manifest?

Am I really giving God my best?

 

I admit that I have struggled with these or some form of “trust issues” my whole life.  I experienced the ultimate betrayal early in life.  I do not think I have ever truly trusted since then.  I did not trust my family to protect me; I did not trust anyone’s intentions or actions.  I always waited…waited for somebody to do something to break the trust that I never really gave them in the first place.  I had to act as though I NEVER expected they could do something so deceitful and malicious.  The reality of me is that I trust no one.  Not family, friends, and sometimes GOD.  There I said it.  It’s not that I do not trust God to provide for me or wake me up.  I have difficulty trusting that God will not let my heart or feelings be hurt again.  I must be my own protector, but that is not true. “The Lord is thy keeper: the Lord is thy shade upon thy right hand. The sun shall not smite thee by day or by night. The Lord shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul.” (Psalm 121:5-7 KJV)

I was wrong.  If I cannot trust anyone else, I can trust the Lord.  It is hard to let go of all the past experiences and hurts that lead you to the place where your “trust issues” start.  Mine began so young that I never knew any other way.  I had to open myself completely to the Lord in order to experience what it means to truly believe in the Lord.  Many of us struggle with some sort of trust issues.  If you are not first able to trust God in every capacity you will not be able to trust in people.  The dictionary defines trust as: “reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, ect, of a person or thing in confidence”. Putting your trust in God is the confidence to know without a doubt that God has your best interest at hand. I had to understand that any heartbreak or pain I may have experienced at the hands of others was designed by God.  I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world “(John 16:33 ESV).  I had to trust that everything that God has allowed to happen to me is with good reason. I am still working through my trust issues with others but I am glad to proclaim that I trust God!

Dear Daddy,

Please allow me to be able to open my heart and mind to others.  I pray that I will be able to see the good in any situation that I may have been through.  I ask that you help me let go and let You take control of my life and all aspects of it. I want to thank You Daddy for trusting me even when I did not trust you. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

I EMPOWER you to move past your trust issues and into your future.  There are good people out there and if you never trust them you will not be able to experience the blessings they may have for your life.  God strategically places people in your life. I EMPOWER you to trust that God knows what He is doing.

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Ms. Sherita Shelton currently resides in Nashville, Tennessee.  She holds a Bachelor’s degree in Psychology and a Master’s in Professional Counseling and is currently pursuing her counseling license.  Sherita works as a therapist and case manager for children as well as adults.  She facilitates groups for single women and offers mentoring and individual counseling for her clients.  Sherita’s favorite Bible verse is Proverbs 3:5-6: “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lot not on your own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”

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6 thoughts on “I Have Trust Issues!”

  1. Great post! I thank God for your transparency, I think we all struggle with trust in one area of our lives or another thanks again for sharing such an on-time word

    1. Thank You, and I am very excited that the word was relevant to your life. Its important to be as honest as possible, because even as Christians we sometimes have some issues with trust. I may not be where I am supposed to be, but thank God I am further along than I used to be.

  2. This is an “in” season word from me. The root of all lack of cofindence in the Father is that we don’t fear him as God. I know that sometimes myself I war with the idea, that I let go and “let God”,but that is because I don’t fear him as being the omly wise,loving,soverign,forgiving,longsuffering,compassionate,giving,enabling,powerful,awesome,imortal,eternal,and this list could continue for enternity and it will,but my point is how many of us(including myself) truly fear him to the capacity of trusting him in ALL things? Oh,Father forgive me for being a “distant” child of yours. Forgive that I don’t acknowledge you for who you are and that I,me,myself,and I get in the way of your Love touching me and teaching me that it it is “ok” to trust you,help me to repent of this.Grace I employ you to get me in the poisition to trust the Farher completely and wholly. In my saviors name Amen!

  3. Lisa, Thank you for also being so honest about the struggle that many of us have. It is one of the hardest things to do is trust God completely. However, God has proven to us time and time again that he is in charge, and will not take us anywhere he does not want us to be. Thank you Lord for opening my heart to the capacity to be able to trust you even when I can not trace you. Amen

  4. Sherita, I completely understand. I have trust issues too. I trust God but I definitely have to work on the trust that I have for people. How can I ask God to send me my husband or to strengthen other relationships when from the beginning my trust is lacking. Thanks for sharing your story as I am sure it’s one that many of us can relate to.

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