How can I trust something I can’t see?
How am I supposed to let Go and let God?
Who is he/she?
Where will I be if I let this being consume me?
If I give you my heart will you break it?
If I offer you all of me will you take it?
Will you lose interest and discard of me like all the rest?
If temptation smacks you in the face will you pass the test?
Why are you being so nice to me?
Are your intentions pure or tainted?
Will you be good for me, or am I too jaded to see it?
There is no such thing as “good people” anymore so who are you?
What does it feel like to trust someone?
What does it look like to trust God?
How does trust manifest?
Am I really giving God my best?
I admit that I have struggled with these or some form of “trust issues” my whole life. I experienced the ultimate betrayal early in life. I do not think I have ever truly trusted since then. I did not trust my family to protect me; I did not trust anyone’s intentions or actions. I always waited…waited for somebody to do something to break the trust that I never really gave them in the first place. I had to act as though I NEVER expected they could do something so deceitful and malicious. The reality of me is that I trust no one. Not family, friends, and sometimes GOD. There I said it. It’s not that I do not trust God to provide for me or wake me up. I have difficulty trusting that God will not let my heart or feelings be hurt again. I must be my own protector, but that is not true. “The Lord is thy keeper: the Lord is thy shade upon thy right hand. The sun shall not smite thee by day or by night. The Lord shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul.” (Psalm 121:5-7 KJV)
I was wrong. If I cannot trust anyone else, I can trust the Lord. It is hard to let go of all the past experiences and hurts that lead you to the place where your “trust issues” start. Mine began so young that I never knew any other way. I had to open myself completely to the Lord in order to experience what it means to truly believe in the Lord. Many of us struggle with some sort of trust issues. If you are not first able to trust God in every capacity you will not be able to trust in people. The dictionary defines trust as: “reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, ect, of a person or thing in confidence”. Putting your trust in God is the confidence to know without a doubt that God has your best interest at hand. I had to understand that any heartbreak or pain I may have experienced at the hands of others was designed by God. “I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world “(John 16:33 ESV). I had to trust that everything that God has allowed to happen to me is with good reason. I am still working through my trust issues with others but I am glad to proclaim that I trust God!
Please allow me to be able to open my heart and mind to others. I pray that I will be able to see the good in any situation that I may have been through. I ask that you help me let go and let You take control of my life and all aspects of it. I want to thank You Daddy for trusting me even when I did not trust you. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
I EMPOWER you to move past your trust issues and into your future. There are good people out there and if you never trust them you will not be able to experience the blessings they may have for your life. God strategically places people in your life. I EMPOWER you to trust that God knows what He is doing.
Continuing with our BREAST CANCER AWARENESS MONTH celebration, we encourage you to watch Lifetime’s short film series, “Five.” “Five” is a series of five short films that explore the impact of Breast Cancer on people’s lives. The five films are directed by Jennifer Aniston, Alicia Keys, Demi Moore, Patty Jenkins (“Monster”) and Penelope Spheeris (“Wayne’s World”). The short films are all titled after their main character – “Charlotte,” “Cheyenne,” “Lili,” “Mia” and “Pearl.” Visit http://www.mylifetime.com/movies/five/video/five to enjoy the films.
Ms. Sherita Shelton currently resides in Nashville, Tennessee. She holds a Bachelor’s degree in Psychology and a Master’s in Professional Counseling and is currently pursuing her counseling license. Sherita works as a therapist and case manager for children as well as adults. She facilitates groups for single women and offers mentoring and individual counseling for her clients. Sherita’s favorite Bible verse is Proverbs 3:5-6: “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lot not on your own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”