Best of 2011 Series, Self-Esteem

Best of 2011: #1 — It’s the God in Me

Alas, we have reached number one EmpowerMoment of 2011! Remember that with the God in you, you can acheive anything!  Let’s make history in 2012!

It Ain’t What it Look Like…

We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. (2 Corinthians 4:8-9) For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. (2 Corinthians 4:17-18 NIV)

When I turned 30 I was a tad devastated because I just knew I was entering this new world of “Divaness”. But what I ran into was a sensitive marriage, an extra 80 pounds of weight, health issues, low self esteem, and not sure of where my life was headed. On December 28, 2010 I made a decision because I looked depressed. I paused and took a moment with God and poured out my heart and asked God to “Create in me a new heart and renew a right spirit within me.” Psalm 51:10 (KJV) I began to get deeper into prayer and began to slow down my chaotic life of being so busy. I began praying continuously, without ceasing so I could hear Him. I prayed getting dressed, driving to work, watching TV, eating dinner, and teaching my classes. I took “internal, eternal worship” to a whole new level in my life because I knew He could restore me. Months passed and one day my aunt said, “It’s something new about you.” By then my marriage had strengthened because I was listening to God as how to act, respond, and love my man. God gave me a sense of drive to lose weight (36 pounds to date) and exercise more. I even ran a 5K! I got bold and cut off all of my hair and started wearing a cute asymmetric cut to refresh myself. So why am I sharing all of this?

We don’t always have to look like we are down trodden because we are going through a disaster, but seek God and find joy in the midst of it.  Hasn’t God covered you, your mess and your embarrassment?  This fact is enough to EMPOWER myself. Sometimes all I can say is, “It’s the God in Me.”  The God in me is what makes me feel like a million bucks when I only have one. It’s the God in us that’s making our marriage as blissful as it is even when we aren’t sure if we are doing it right. It’s the God in me that makes being a mom look so “cute” and “fun” when I really feel inadequate.  It’s not me, not my deeds, not my actions, not even how I worship and pray, but God’s grace and mercy that has made Him show favor towards me. This is the “something” that my Aunt saw. It’s not me at all, it’s God, and for this I owe Him.

I selected “It’s the God in Me” to celebrate Black Music Month for a couple of reasons. When I’m jogging and I hear this song, I almost cry because only God could have turned me into a runner. People think that I am simply motivated, but not so much. I prayed for God to give me this drive. Not only that, but this song is so “divafied” that I feel encouraged that God has covered so many of my raggedy characteristics and made them look “polished.”

Dear Daddy,

Thank You for Your grace. Thank You for being a sustainer in the time of trouble. Thank You for being a strong fortress when I feel weak. God, help me to share my story so that others know that they don’t have to feel beat down, but can walk in confidence knowing that if they have You, You will supply every need. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

Girlfriend, I EMPOWER you today to hold your head high in confidence that the God in YOU is what will keep your smile when it really is a frown. The Bible says, “Greater is He that is in YOU, than he that is in the world.” (1 John 4:4 KJV)  So don’t look beaten, because you aren’t. Jesus encourages us during times of sacrifice and fasting, “But when you fast, put oil on your head and wash your face, so that it will not be obvious to others that you are fasting, but only to your Father, who is unseen; and your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.” (Matthew 6:17-18). Get a new tube of lip gloss, smack those lips, and walk in the beauty that God has blessed you with. The Potter is on the wheel and while you are being molded, relax, let it flow, and strut in God’s promise to never forsake you! What they don’t know won’t hurt them right? But we know, “It’s the God in Me!

Those shoes are my motivation pair. When I’m down, I strut around the house in them, just because they make me feel cute!

As a professional, Mrs. Khalilah Burton is College Biology Instructor. She is also currently pursuing a Doctorate of Education in Higher Ed and Community College Leadership. Khalilah is passionate about her faith journey and uses this key scripture as her inspiration: “But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” (Isaiah 40:31 KJV) She teaches Young Adult Bible Study and Sunday School and also serves as a guest speaker and panelist for various events for women and Christian empowerment.  Khalilah resides in Millbrook, Alabama with her wonderful husband Donald Burton, Jr. and their energetic three-year old daughter. They attend St. Luke Christian ChurchCheck out Khalilah’s Christian weight loss blog here.

4 thoughts on “Best of 2011: #1 — It’s the God in Me”

  1. Hey Cousin,
    I found it weird at first that l would find myself clicking and reading something you posted, but then l thought about it and it was meant for me to find your post. It was very uplifting and very much so that l sent it to a friend of mine who l felt needed to read it during his time of need. I want to say thank you for being so gifted to write and have the courage to put yourself out there because you never know who might need some encouragement. Love you very much. Berty

    1. Awww, Bert,

      You encouraged me by your words. Stay safe overseas, and I’ll be glad when you make it back to the states! Love you back!!

      (And yes, it is awkward and frightening to air your laundry to the cyber world, YIKES!)

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