A conversation with self on 12/29/11:
“I’m angry with my husband. I don’t want to follow today. I don’t want to submit. I’m frustrated with my life and the path chosen for me. My heart is numb. I don’t want to love. My vision is dull. I can’t see the purpose in my promised future. Every area of my life seems to be falling apart. Relationships are not the same; provisions are desolate; there’s constant opposition on the job; I’m not resting while I’m sleep. I thought my husband was supposed to provide for me, fight my battles, and protect me from being hurt and lied on, but what’s happening?! I love Him but I can’t help the way I’m feeling. I’m “feeling” alone on life’s battlefield and it “seems” my enemy is getting the best of me. I WANT OUT!”
Have the pressures of life been so tough that they have made you consider divorcing your husband? Not that husband! The Lord, your SPIRITUAL HUSBAND!
Turn, O backsliding children, saith the Lord; for I am married unto you: Jeremiah 3:14 KJV
Yes, this is the conversation one has with self when going through in a natural marriage, but what happens if this is your dialogue about your spiritual marriage? What if this is the way you are feeling toward your husband, Christ? (The One who died so you can live; the One who emptied Himself of His privileges so He can be tested in every measure you’re tested; your King) This is usually unhealthy self talk when the pressures of life consume us.
Bring my soul out of prison, that I may praise thy name. Psalms 142:7 KJV
When life’s situations begin to pile on us, our soul (mind, will, and emotions) is in captivity and this prevents us from praising God! This keeps our focus on the problems opposed to the Problem Solver and before we know it, we are internally screaming divorce! Our soul screams divorce but the spirit shouts press into His presence. This internal battle creates a spiritual war that if we are not careful and hold onto the things we’ve learned, the outcome can be devastating!
And Jesus knew their thoughts, and said unto them, Every kingdom divided against itself is brought to desolation: and every city or house divided against itself shall not stand. Matthew 12:25 KJV
KINGDOM-You are a king with dominion. HOUSE-Your body is the home of the Holy Spirit. DIVISION-NOT AN OPTION! Please do not choose to be divided from your King! Satan’s desire and goal is for you to be divided within because he knows the outcome. If your soul drags you in one direction while the spirit of the living God is telling you different, I BESEECH YOU SISTEREN, to press!!!!
Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:13-14 KJV
I thank You for being a great husband. Even in my times of considering divorce, your love still remains the same. I thank You this day that I am as faithful to You as You are to me. I thank You Father for causing me to realize I have purpose and helping me to stand on Your word and promises. Father, I bind the spirit of defeat, double-mindedness, and discouragement and command them to loose me now in the name of Jesus! I thank You that I am victorious, I have the mind of Christ, and You are my hope in hopeless situations! I thank You for Your delivering power in the name of Jesus! I decree and declare I am the tree planted by the river and I bear fruit in all seasons. I glorify You! In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
Ladies, I EMPOWER you to look adversity and opposition in the eye and tell them to be thou removed and be thou cast into the sea because you will not retreat from your purpose! I decree and declare you SHALL press towards greatness, your destiny, and your pre-ordained end in Christ!
Ms. Rodnisha L. Anderson resides in Chicago, IL and serves as an elder at Life Redeeming Ministries. She works diligently with the Singles and Intercessory ministries. She is married to the Lord and becomes whatever she needs to become to reach the people for the building of God’s kingdom. Rodnisha truly desires to witness successful single women thriving in the kingdom of God. Her favorite scripture is 1 Timothy 4:12: “Don’t let anyone think less of you because you are young. Be an example to all believers in what you say, in the way you live, in your love, your faith, and your purity.”