Before the New Year came in, I was in a funk. I shut myself in for a few days in hopes that I could pull my self together before the clock struck 12:00 AM on January 1st. I was sulking over the past year and what had not been. Unmet goals in the areas of relationships, health, family, finances, and career all seemed to weigh heavily on me. I wondered if God was listening. Even more, I was frustrated because I felt as though He knew the desires of my heart and the spoken words from my mouth yet I had not seen these things come to pass. I shut down and tried to just sleep this feeling away but it wouldn’t budge. I kept wondering “God do you hear me?” “God do you care?”
Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God. Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows. (Luke 12: 6-7 NIV)
Although it is an unlikely place, I found the answer to my nagging question in a friends cough. As she coughed and released phlegm (mucus), I relished in God awesomeness. He designed our bodies to fight. Mucus carries pathogens and foreign particles out of our body. In many cold cases, white blood cells travel to the respiratory system trying to rid the body of infection. White blood cells are created to fight meaning we have little warriors in our body that attack whenever something is seeking to destroy us internally. As Psalms 139:14 says we are fearfully and wonderfully made. God cares about His creations so much that He equipped us with everything we need to fight. He was concerned beyond the cellular level. He was so concerned that He has engineered our bodies to work in synchrony and precision. Surely if He is a God that can design a body that operates so proficiently, He can take care of my small desires.
Furthermore, I was reminded that these trials only come to prove my strength and faith in Him. Instead of sulking I should have been rejoicing because I have faith that He is indeed capable of turning any situation around. Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him. (James 1:2-4, 12 NIV)
As I continued to reflect, I realized that there were some things that I simply did not work for and as we know Hebrews 2:17 tells us “faith without works is dead.” There were petitions that I had to check my motives about Ye ask, and receive not, because ye ask amiss, that ye may consume it upon your lusts (James 4:3 KJV) and still there were others that were simply not apart of His will for my life. His will is indeed most important for my life because He tells us in Isaiah 55:8-9, “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.” (KJV)
Time and time again God has shown that He cares for me; yet, I allow myself to doubt Him. Do you find yourself in this position? Remember that God has intricately designed every cell in your body to work according to His instruction. Surely if He cares for you at the cellular level, He cares about the whole YOU!
Forgive me for doubting You. Help me to recognize that sometimes You are protecting me from myself. When it’s right and when it’s ready, You will grant me the desires of my heart. I will continue to trust that the God who knows me inside and out also knows what is best for my life. You are not restricted to a Roman calendar. In Your timing it shall come to pass, but until then I will continue to keep the faith, I will continue to do Your will and I will continue to work. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
Today I EMPOWER you to put your will for your life aside for God’s will. Turn it over to Him and trust that He knows what is best for you. Check your motives. Check your work ethic and have faith that God knows what He is doing. As cliché as it may sound, it is absolutely correct “He may not come when you want Him to, but He is always on time.”
Ms. Chancee` Lundy currently resides in Atlanta, GA and is a small business co-owner of Nspiregreen, LLC an environmental consulting firm. She is also a dedicated daughter, sister, friend, community servant, and child of God. She is passionate about causes that truly uplift the community. One of her favorite scriptures is Hebrews 11:6: “And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.”