For so long, I’ve felt like the women I see in movies that get stuck in quicksand running from someone or something. They are treading, splashing, and trying to keep their heads above the sand so they don’t sink; inevitably, one of two things happens: they get rescued or they sink.
My scene in the quicksand lasted much longer than it should have.
For as long as I can remember, I’ve been jumping into situations that look good from a distance and after getting caught up, I would try to run but quickly start to sink. I would find myself over and over again wearily treading the ‘quicksand’ and barely able to keep from sinking. I have always felt His favor was upon me and in hindsight I recognize that for a long time I took for granted that He would rescue me from the quicksand that I kept finding myself in.
I prayed and prayed for God to change the man I was in love with or give me the strength to leave him, but at night I’d cling to him with all my strength as if to prevent God from removing him.
I prayed for better jobs and for more money to do what ‘made me happy’ and then I would swipe my credit card until it could be swiped no more. I would get upset, run, and sink again.
Time and time again, I’d pray for God to help me control my impulsive emotional eating, for me to just be content with Him, and not look for satisfaction through food. Then the moment I finished my prayer, I would go eat my ‘last’ bowl of ice cream or two, wake up too big for all of my clothes, and run yet again. And yes, I sank again.
My desires and actions did not align with my prayers or what I claimed were my values. I was holding onto everything that I was praying so hard to be able to let go of!
One day he dropped a scripture that I knew backwards and forward into my spirit and it took on a new meaning: “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11 NIV)
And just like that I felt like I could stop running.
I recognized that while I thought I was running to God, crying, praying, and begging for His help, I was running from Him! I realized that I needed to run to Him with my burdens, issues, concerns, and prayers and give them to Him. I realized I had to give myself to Him, if I wanted to stop running and sinking.
“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” (1 Peter 5:7 NIV)
I had to let go of everything. I had to surrender.
Thank You for always being willing to carry burdens that You know I cannot bear on my own. Thank You for Your constant reminder that You will never leave me or forsake me and that I can always bring everything to You. I pray that I will continue to surrender more and more of myself to You each day. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
Ladies, today I EMPOWER you to refuse to sink! When you feel that you are drowning, allow God to be your life jacket and put all your weight on Him. He will pull you through!
What are you holding on to that is weighing you down, causing you to sink lower, and pushing you farther away from God?
Ms. Tiffany Huff is the devoted mother of two boys, a blogger, lover of food and travel, and aspiring entrepreneur with a passion for helping others live out their purposes. She is looking forward to growing in her walk and honoring God through sharing her EmpowerMoments. One of her meditation scriptures is Romans 12:2: “Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.”