Although I really hate to admit this (no really I’m cringing), lately I have found myself becoming envious of others. Oh how I wish I could tell you that it wasn’t the truth. While I was happy for the person(s), I would feel this twinge of covetousness. These feelings made me question if I was truly happy for them or if I was feigning it because I felt guilty about my true emotions. I started questioning God with the “where’s mine,” and the “when?” I felt like my “favor” was gone and the things that I was used to happening for me, I saw happening for others instead.
Just as I was becoming distraught about my feelings, God sent me the same word He’s been sending me for quite some time; only this time it made me spring into action. I listened to a sermon by Bishop TD Jakes entitled “Instinct to Increase.” While I won’t go into all of the details of that sermon, I was sorely convicted as we read through the scripture “And unto one he gave five talents, to another two, and to another one; to every man according to his several ability; and straightway took his journey.” (Matthew 25:14 KJV) Many of us know this story but what we often miss is that God gave each person a talent according to their ability. Although they didn’t receive the same amount of gifts, they received the same opportunity. As the story goes, the servants who had five and two talents doubled the Master’s money. “But he that had received one went and digged in the earth, and hid his lord’s money.”(Matthew 25:18 KJV)
Again, I sat ashamed at being irresponsible for what God gifted me. How could I fix my heart, my mind and my mouth to question what God was doing for others when I was hiding the “gift” He had given to me? As I looked at those same people receiving accolades and other “stuff,” the one thing that I couldn’t deny is that they deserved whatever they were receiving. I could pinpoint their sacrifice, work ethic, and obedience. This isn’t to say that I haven’t done any of those things, but I know in my heart that I haven’t stepped out in some areas where God has been pushing me. Yes, I wanted to reap where I have not sown.
In this parable, I realized that it wasn’t about the amount of “talent”; it was about being responsible with whatever the Master gave to me. He rewards faithfulness. While the servants who increased their talents were able to enter into the joy of the Lord, meaning they had a chance to partake from the Master’s table and enjoy His goods, the servant who hid his talent suffered. “For unto every one that hath shall be given, and he shall have abundance: but from him that hath not shall be taken away even that which he hath. And cast ye the unprofitable servant into outer darkness: there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth.” (Matthew 14:29-30 KJV) I don’t know about you, but I don’t want to be an outcast because I am not increasing what God has charged me with. I would much rather have abundance.
Since that moment of clarity, the green has been lifted from eyes and instead my focus is on doing my part with what I’ve been gifted. My goal is to be a servant that is pleasing to the Master.
Forgive me for being envious of others. Forgive me for my own disobedience. Lord, increase my faith as I step into unfamiliar territory. Grant me the instinct that I need to bring life to those things You have gifted me with. Thank You for trusting me with this responsibility. From this point forward, I will not let you down. I love You. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
I EMPOWER you to step out and “just do it.” Recognize the opportunity that He gives you to please Him. Make sure that your thoughts; words and deeds are for His glory. Commit to exposing the “talent” that God has given you instead of hiding it. I EMPOWER you to spend so much time focusing on what God has gifted you with that you won’t have time to be envious of others.
Are you hiding what God has gifted you with? Why? How can we help?
Ms. Chancee` Lundy lives in Washington, DC and is an entrepreneur as she is the co-owner of Nspiregreen, LLC, an environmental consulting firm. She is also a dedicated daughter, sister, friend and community servant. She has used her gift of public speaking to lead workshops across the globe speaking to crowds as large as 10,000 people. Her guiding scriptures this week are Philippians 4:11-13 “Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content. I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: everywhere and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. I can do all things through Christ which strengthened me.”