Teach me, O Lord, to follow your decrees; then I will keep them to the end. Give me understanding, and I will keep your law and obey it with all my heart. Direct me in the path of your commands, for there I find delight. Turn my heart toward your statutes and not toward selfish gain. Turn my eyes away from worthless things; preserve my life according to your word. Fulfill your promise to your servant, so that you may be feared. Take away the disgrace I dread, for your laws are good. How I long four precepts! Preserve my life in your righteousness. (Psalm 119: 33-40 NIV)
I wanted to do me, meaning I took my life into my own hands and set out to do whatever made me happy. I worshiped at a time that was convenient for me, fellowshipped only when I felt the need to tell my business, or someone else’s. I got comfortable in bed with the Bible as if it was a New York Times best seller and read it until I fell asleep. A girl needed money. If I had to, I’d work twelve hour days and even weekends, especially Sundays. There were clothes and shoes to buy, a car to keep clean, a savings for a love nest. And food, I had an insatiable appetite. I love to cook and I love to eat but there was no list at the grocery store. I threw whatever I wanted to eat in the shopping cart. Seeking happiness was a never ending cycle that left me tired and always wanting more. I was sad when I realized I was the only one in my ‘love nest’ and that real friends didn’t care about what I wore or what I was driving. And while I love to cook, I am not the best cook so a lot of food was thrown away. I had come to the realization that happiness that depended on my physical connection with the world was temporary. On the other hand, joy is the result of obedience and is a constant and a gift from God.
I am done with doing me and I am now seeking to live my life based on Jesus Christ’s example. I worship when I feel like and when I don’t feel like it because He deserves my continual sacrifice. I study the Word of God because I desire to learn more about my Daddy, not because I’m looking for entertainment. I smile because my heart is clothed in His word regardless of what I am wearing on the outside! I’ve stopped pursuing happiness as defined by the world; I found an eternal joy! I am doing it His way now!
Thank You for knowing my heart and loving me as I am. Thank You for showing me how to find solace in You because You are the ultimate and perfect source of all of my needs. Help me to see You more and more each day! In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
Ladies, I EMPOWER you to turn away from the things in your life that provide temporary happiness and seek God’s everlasting and unconditional gift of joy.
What temporary things have you sought for happiness before finding true joy?
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Saneatra Polk resides on the south side of Chicago and works as a quality technician for a food manufacturer. She attends The Moody Church and her favorite Bible verse is: “The Lord is my helper, I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?” (Hebrews 13:6 NIV)