Circles and Broken Records

So as I was writing my EM (that got canned), it started to sound familiar.  Then it hit me, I am going in circles, writing and experiencing the same trials and lessons over and over again.  Quite frankly, I am TIREDDDDDDDDDD of saying and going through the same things.  I am sick of sounding like a broken record.  Words like anxiety, fear, worry, defeated, baggage carrier were starting to become my identity and I almost couldn’t shake them, didn’t even recognize I was transforming into them day by day.  So now I am going to change my tune like Mary J. Blige did.  I owe it to my health (did you know the stuff you carry around mentally and emotionally can wear down your body and manifest physical sickness), myself, my family, and my Brother Jesus Christ who gave me His life to chart a new course, fulfill my destiny and glorify our Father in Heaven.  

It is time to make my flesh submit fully to my optimistic, bubbly, compassionate and prayer warrior spirit who is following Christ.  God is my confidence and He is the author and finisher of my faith so I have to stop letting distractions, fear, and things I cannot control write my story.  I have to submit my emotions to God who created them to be my aid, not my crippling device, and get them under control.  I have to remember God’s promises to me and saturate in His word till it springs up like a bubbling well.  I have to finally do what God has been telling me to do and that is to SURRENDER IT ALL to Him.  

Distractions come to take your focus off God; worry stems from doubt that God is in control; anxiety comes when your body and mind don’t know what to do when they can’t run or control the situation; fear is present when you check your faith at the door and take your focus once again off of God.  Feeling defeated comes when we forget our position in Christ and becoming a baggage carrier comes when we refuse to let go of what we think our identity is.  We load our baggage around, too afraid to come out of our comfort zones and be free, failing to trust God to take it from us and add to us something lighter and more manageable because all the while, He is carrying us and managing everything we can’t carry and everything we think we can.

So I write this EM with no details about what’s going wrong in my life or even a detailed testimony; however, I do write to say that the thing God has been saying all along now clicks.  “Let go and let me take control; I know what’s best and can handle it.  I am alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end.”  Surrendering to God is required if we want an unhindered relationship with God.  Ladies, so that is what I have been practicing—letting go and letting God, controlling my emotions, putting my trust in God more and involving God in every aspect of my life.  It is not my own life to retain for myself.  I am more content with who I am and what I have.   I will not be consumed by the world around me, but I will allow God to envelop me for I am His and He is mine.  He never intended for me to go in circles but to go straight while keeping my eyes on Him.  

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.  For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. (2 Corinthians 4:16-18 NIV)

Dear Daddy,

Help me to stay on this path of living a surrendered life. Renew my mind and help me to put on the Armor of God everyday to defend myself against every attack of the enemy.  I can’t control everything but I can control how I react to them so help me to react with faith and complete trust in You.  Help me to remember every promise You made to me.  In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

Ladies, today I EMPOWER you to stop the record and sing a new tune.  Even if you are in a storm, even if you face threats, persecution, uncomfortable changes, loneliness, financial difficulties, health issues, anxiety, or feel stuck in your waiting for the promises God made to you, hold on and put it in God’s hands.  Get really fed up of going in circles and tell God you want to go straight, and just keep your eyes on Him.

Have you been walking in circles?  What steps are you taking to live a surrendered life?

Read a related EM:  Is There An ‘S’ On Your Chest? 


Ms. Tannika Moore loves the Lord and loves to write! Besides writing poetry or editing written work for family and friends, she currently works for NEIU Educational Talent Search program. She help assists Chicago public high school students with their reading, writing, etc. as well as helps them consider and prepare for college God, the Creator and Great Father has also created her to be a Compassion Person and Encourager and so she loves to encourage people according to God’s Word and help them to see, think and become better through her support, actions and writing. Her favorite scripture comes from Philippians 1:6, For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you shall perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.

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