I was running, tripped over a rock and fell. I got up, started back running and ran into a tree. It didn’t move, so I moved around it and kept running. Running through the grass, my foot fell into a hole; I twisted my ankle, detangled it, wrapped it, and kept running. I’m on mile 5 now, still running; a bird dropped a “gift” onto my shirt. I wiped it off and kept running, running, and running. I’m at mile 7 and saw a pack of dogs in the field near me, I panicked and sped up. They ignored me. A branch fell and braised my arm, it began to bleed. I wrapped it, and kept running. I’m at mile 9.5 and I’m tired. Mentally I have decided to quit. It’s not the running that’s making me tired, but all of these obstacles and threats are wearing on me mentally. So I quit, but unbeknownst to me, the finish line was at mile 10.
This is the story of my life. I feel like I’m running, with no end in sight, yet I can tell the finish line is near…somewhere. I’m tired. I’ve pressed, prayed, waited (in my terms), and tried to listen. But let’s be honest, sometimes you feel as though enough is enough. Your vision becomes blurred and you can’t see past your despair. The darts and schemes of the enemy distract you into thinking you can’t finish. That’s where I am, well, sort of.
This passage comforts me:
“Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.” Romans 8:26-28 MSG
WOWZERS! The Holy Spirit has stepped in to save me from myself. The Spirit is praying for me as I stand in faith, numb to the powerful secrets of my future. God knows our pregnant condition, meaning He knows that in the last trimester of pregnancy you get tired, restless, irritable, and uncomfortable. Everything in you aches and you are ready to QUIT! Not only that, the most painful part is during the birth of that blessing, which happens at the end of the “I’m ready to quit” stage.
His Word just told me that He keeps me present before Him. Now, Jesus said “He came so that I may have life, and that I may have it more abundantly.” (John 10:10 KJV) This tells me that God’s eye is on me, He hasn’t forgotten that He wants me to have an abundant life. So what shall I say, “If God is for me, who can be against me?” (Romans 8:31 NIV)
I’m comforted in knowing that I am prepared. I’ve been here before and survived bountifully. “I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. I can do all things through him who strengthens me.” (Philippians 4:12-13 ESV) I will “rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer.” (Romans 12:12 ESV) Because in all things I am certain, that “those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” (Isaiah 40:31 NIV)
Thank You for Your Holy Spirit, who intercedes for me when I am weak. Thank You for uncovering Your Word to reveal to me that You understand the anxiety and impatience that comes with being on the brink of fruits. Thank You for revealing to me that I should be anxious for nothing and that if I wait on You, I will see the plan You have set just for me. Thank You for pulling me out of depths of my darkness and positioning me in Your light. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
Ladies, I EMPOWER you to hold on. There is a saying from Franklin D. Roosevelt, “When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hold on.” I want to add to that and say, while you’re hanging, in the meantime swing your legs to gain momentum because when God presses the release button, you’ll need to be ready to leap!
When you are at the end of your rope, what do you do to stay faithful to God?
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As a professional, Mrs. Khalilah Burton is a university administrator. She is also currently pursuing a Doctorate of Education in Community College Leadership. Khalilah is passionate about her faith journey and uses this key scripture as her inspiration: “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” (Romans 8:28 NIV) Khalilah also serves as a guest speaker and panelist for various events for women and Christian empowerment. Her passion is mentoring young women and marriage empowerment. She resides in Orange Beach, Alabama with her wonderful husband Donald Burton, Jr. and their two daughters. They are members of New Beginnings Christian Center in Foley, AL.