Happy New Year EmpowerMoments family! We have surely missed you! As we kick off the new year, we are beginning with a series entitled “Testimonies & Lessons”. We believe Revelation 12:11 when it says that we overcome by the word of our testimonies. We pray that our testimony and lessons from last year will EMPOWER you to triumph this year! May God bless you and make 2014 the greatest year of your life thus far!
Last year, 2013, was an emotional one. My heart, my mind and my soul felt like they were being bounced up and down on a seesaw continually because of my ups and downs.
My year was filled with many blessings; my family took my second youngest sister to college. She is now my mom’s second child to attend college. Last year became my third year being a homeowner. Last year my mom and I had a fabulous mommy and daughter weekend retreat for her birthday. Last year I finally got my driver’s license. I made the decision to permanently close the door to my ex-boyfriend who wanted to try again at a relationship. After much prayer, I started planning my future business. My household gained a new member, my four-year old nephew, and I am having a ball with his smart, energetic self.
However, last year was filled with uncertainties, drama, challenges and pain too. My family had to rush to another state because of a horrific accident that led to my precious youngest nephew having a head injury. I was riddled with worry about my nephews and siblings. My family struggled financially. I had issues at work that left me feeling like I wanted to quit for the first time. I also started back having anxiety attacks and more frequently. I was an emotional wreck and as they say “was feeling some kind of way.”
Yet with all that God gave me one message that humbled me and made me afraid all at the same time. He said “fall apart and let me put you back together again my way.” Yes, FALL APART. “You mean to tell me You want me to fall apart?” was my response. It finally sunk in that all this time my anxiety and my fear is a failure to surrender myself FULLY to the Lord. If you read my past EmpowerMoments, you would think that I would have gotten it by now. However, I didn’t and my testimony is simply that I now understand that I can fall apart because God intended for me to rely and depend upon Him. “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. (John 15:5 NIV) I can surrender, I can let go and God will put me back together again. He will take care of me. He will protect me. He will provide for me. He will never leave me, nor forsake me. I learned that although things change around me and things look uncertain, God is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow and He is full of stability, consistency and faithfulness. I also learned that in order to thrive and survive, I must remember that my life is not my own. I belong to God, Jesus died for me, and the Holy Spirit abides in me.
Thank You Father for seeing me through a year I thought I would not make it through sane, happy and sometimes alive. I thank You for being patient with me. You could have just flunked me after not getting what You have been trying to teach me for so long. Thank You for showing me that You know what is best for me, have what is best for me and want the best for me. I thank You for Your mercy and Your love that has never failed me. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
Ladies, today I EMPOWER you to allow the test that lead to testimonies. Allow the process that leads to a finished product and remember that God always finishes what He starts. I also EMPOWER you to FULLY surrender. If you feel like you are falling apart, trust God to put you back together with His Word, His Power, His Love and His Grace. Ladies, both of my nephews are doing well. My siblings have some testimonies of their own but they are doing just fine. Honestly, I have had a few anxieties to date, but I am learning to control my emotions and trust God more. My family may still have some struggles financially, but we have shelter, food, clothes and God who is a provider. Hallelujah!
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Ms. Tannika Moore loves the Lord and loves to write! Besides writing poetry or editing written work for family and friends, she currently works for NEIU Educational Talent Search program. She helps assist Chicago Public School students with their reading, writing, etc. as well as helps them consider and prepare for college. God, the Creator and Great Father has also created her to be a compassionate person and encourager so she loves to encourage people according to God’s Word and help them to see, think and become better through her support, actions and writing. Her favorite scripture comes from Philippians 1:6, “For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you shall perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.”