Testimony Series

My Testimony: Surrendering to God

Happy New Year EmpowerMoments family! We have surely missed you! As we kick off the new year, we are beginning with a series entitled “Testimonies & Lessons”. We believe Revelation 12:11 when it says that we overcome by the word of our testimonies. We pray that our testimony and lessons from last year will EMPOWER you to triumph this year! May God bless you and make 2014 the greatest year of your life thus far!

Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.  See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. (Psalm 139:23-24 NIV)

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. (1 John 1:9 NIV)

When I look back on 2013, I realize that most of the year was about self-evaluation. Towards the end of the year, I had a moment of brokenness. I spent time focusing on myself and my issues. Facing my issues was really hard. Here is a list of a few things I had to accept: 1.) In Fall 2009, I allowed failing my internship my senior year of college to emotionally paralyze me and give up on life (lose my motivation & passion for the Social Work field) 2.) I had issues with lust, loneliness, past hurt and relationships, and dealing with my singleness 3.) I was unfaithful to God  4.) I tolerated negative behaviors (i.e. disrespect, manipulation, mistreatment, controlling behavior) from people that I loved and cared about.

I learned that I had to be honest with God and myself. I had to realize what caused me to be the way I am. I surrendered my heart to God. That was hard for me to do because I was afraid of what would happen (i.e. being out of control and feeling emotional pain). I had to truly let God in and heal me (He still is healing me). I learned that healing does not have a time limit. It’s difficult when you have to open up wounds that you try to keep covered up. I have the habit of suppressing my feelings and things that have hurt me. When you suppress things for a long period of time, something will trigger those events and cause you to deal with them.

Surrendering to God can be scary at first but He can’t help us if we aren’t opening up our hearts to Him. Yes, God knows our thoughts but He would like to hear from us. It’s okay to tell God how you feel.  He wants us to come to Him.

Dear Daddy,

Help me to examine myself and reveal to me things in my heart that need to be changed or healed. Help me to surrender to You and not be afraid. I want to be honest with You, God. I want to tell You things that are on my heart or on my mind. I know You have my best interest at heart.  In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

Ladies, I EMPOWER you to cry out to God. Tell Him how you feel. Only He can heal you and restore the broken places. No person or anything can fill the voids that you have but God. Let Him fill your voids with His unconditional love as well as draw you closer to Him.

What are you surrendering to God this morning? Be free!


Venus Gilmore currently resides in Auburn, AL . She is an alumna of Auburn University. Venus has B.A. in Sociology with a concentration in Social Organization and Inequality with a minor in Social Work. She plans on pursuing a career in Social Services. She currently serves as treasurer of the Kings Alpha E-line Chapter, the Mamie Reese Scholarship Director, and College Transition Program Director of her sorority Theta Phi Sigma Christian Sorority, Inc. Venus is also a blogger for Radical7even. She is an active Client Advocate volunteer for the Women’s Hope Medical Clinic. She successfully balances all of these responsibilities with her favorite scripture as motivation: “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” (Philippians 4:13)

11 thoughts on “My Testimony: Surrendering to God”

  1. Venus,
    Awesome EmpowerMoment!! I too remember when I had to just surrender it all to Him! It is such a liberating feeling knowing that you don’t have to rely on your own strength, but you have an all powerful God fighting on your behalf! Thanks for sharing!

    1. Amen! Thank you! I’m sorry Kristen! I put the wrong comment under your name! Smh! Charge it to my head & not my heart! God bless!

  2. Venus, there is abosutely nothing better than a lesson learned! Thank you for sharing your heart with is, it will help so many. I am encouraged and reminded to continue to examine my self against the ordeals of God. Thank you!

  3. Venus, thank you for this word. I have to remember to TELL him what Im going through and seek his guidance. Sometimes we put up a facade because we are scared to deal with the things that are really going on in our life. It’s a lesson that I continue to learn. I pray that God continues to heal you of any past hurt and that you forgive yourself for any mistakes because he has already forgiven you (that’s a lesson for me). Thank you

    1. You’re welcome! Glory be to God! I agree w/ you that we do put up a facade at times. The only one we fool are ourselves. Thank you for your prayers & words of encouragement! God bless!

  4. Thanks Venus for this EmpowerMoment! I’m telling you that God know He will reveal some stuff to you. He has been telling me so much about surrender that I’m like God please help me, I am incapable of doing this myself. Surrendering, letting God evaluate you, and facing your issues are scary things. Yet, I am determined to not dwell in the wilderness trying to get this lesson for the rest of my life. So it is a relief that I am not the only one who is honest to say it’s not easy. However, it so worth it to surrender. After all it all belongs to God and He knows best, wants best and has best for us all.

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