Happy New Year EmpowerMoments family! We have surely missed you! As we kick off the new year, we are beginning with a series entitled “Testimonies & Lessons”. We believe Revelation 12:11 when it says that we overcome by the word of our testimonies. We pray that our testimony and lessons from last year will EMPOWER you to triumph this year! May God bless you and make 2014 the greatest year of your life thus far!
Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. (Psalm 139:23-24 NIV)
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. (1 John 1:9 NIV)
When I look back on 2013, I realize that most of the year was about self-evaluation. Towards the end of the year, I had a moment of brokenness. I spent time focusing on myself and my issues. Facing my issues was really hard. Here is a list of a few things I had to accept: 1.) In Fall 2009, I allowed failing my internship my senior year of college to emotionally paralyze me and give up on life (lose my motivation & passion for the Social Work field) 2.) I had issues with lust, loneliness, past hurt and relationships, and dealing with my singleness 3.) I was unfaithful to God 4.) I tolerated negative behaviors (i.e. disrespect, manipulation, mistreatment, controlling behavior) from people that I loved and cared about.
I learned that I had to be honest with God and myself. I had to realize what caused me to be the way I am. I surrendered my heart to God. That was hard for me to do because I was afraid of what would happen (i.e. being out of control and feeling emotional pain). I had to truly let God in and heal me (He still is healing me). I learned that healing does not have a time limit. It’s difficult when you have to open up wounds that you try to keep covered up. I have the habit of suppressing my feelings and things that have hurt me. When you suppress things for a long period of time, something will trigger those events and cause you to deal with them.
Surrendering to God can be scary at first but He can’t help us if we aren’t opening up our hearts to Him. Yes, God knows our thoughts but He would like to hear from us. It’s okay to tell God how you feel. He wants us to come to Him.
Help me to examine myself and reveal to me things in my heart that need to be changed or healed. Help me to surrender to You and not be afraid. I want to be honest with You, God. I want to tell You things that are on my heart or on my mind. I know You have my best interest at heart. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
Ladies, I EMPOWER you to cry out to God. Tell Him how you feel. Only He can heal you and restore the broken places. No person or anything can fill the voids that you have but God. Let Him fill your voids with His unconditional love as well as draw you closer to Him.
What are you surrendering to God this morning? Be free!
Venus Gilmore currently resides in Auburn, AL . She is an alumna of Auburn University. Venus has B.A. in Sociology with a concentration in Social Organization and Inequality with a minor in Social Work. She plans on pursuing a career in Social Services. She currently serves as treasurer of the Kings Alpha E-line Chapter, the Mamie Reese Scholarship Director, and College Transition Program Director of her sorority Theta Phi Sigma Christian Sorority, Inc. Venus is also a blogger for Radical7even. She is an active Client Advocate volunteer for the Women’s Hope Medical Clinic. She successfully balances all of these responsibilities with her favorite scripture as motivation: “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” (Philippians 4:13)