Today I heard a lady say, “God won’t bless your mess, you can’t just come to the Lord all messed up thinking He is going to heal and fix you.” At that moment I was grieved. I was grieved because I wondered how many people had she frightened away from approaching God because they felt the need to get right first. I once even believed that myself.
Jesus said, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. But go and learn what this means: ‘I desire mercy, not sacrifice.’ For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.” (Matthew 9:12-13 NIV)
Just recently I shared with some of my girlfriends how “awful” my past was. I put awful in quotations because we all have our own definition and level of intensity for awful, so for me it was awful. I had a potty mouth. I cursed so bad I could make combinations that would burn a sailor’s ears. I had no respect for authority. Getting high was a joke and partying all night drinking poison was part of my routine. And then, the call that was placed over my life became louder and louder. I couldn’t keep running from God because my roots were in Him, and I knew his voice. At one point I thought to myself, “I have the audacity to think that God can get me out of this.” I had friends who had the same lifestyle and encouraged these things. So turning to God not only meant (so I thought) that I had to get my life together first, but I had to break away from friendships with no clue of how to do it. I was hopeless and didn’t quite know how to turn back. I was ashamed for some of the things I’d done and didn’t have the faith to believe that God would accept me. God’s Word says, “Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.” (Hebrews 4:16 NIV) This is not the confidence of a proud man, but the assurance that when you approach God’s throne He will envelope you, love you, forgive you, and wipe away (literally) your sins.
I stand here today in awe of my present tense. I am humbled by people who can’t pair my past self with who I am today. They find it hard to believe I did those things. I was sick in the Lord, so to speak. I needed a doctor. Somehow I approached Him and He started removing, rebuking, fixing, restoring, and cleansing me from my past. The residue is gone and I now have a new identify, an identity in Christ.
See, Jesus is our intercessor. He is our advocate, the one who stands between us and the Father pleading our case on our behalf. Jesus never once said that he only seeks to save the righteous. He is looking for sinners to save their souls. Will you approach Him?
Thank You for ignoring my blemishes, for not judging me when I asked for forgiveness, and for welcoming me into Your arms. Thank You for protecting me when I couldn’t protect myself or when I was in compromising situations. I am grateful for Your love and undying loyalty to me even though I’ve failed You over and over again. Lord, please give me the strength and the wisdom to take strides in the right direction. Heal me oh Lord from my iniquities and grant me mercy to continue this journey so that I may be a testimony to someone else who is sick. In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.
Ladies, I EMPOWER you to approach God’s throne with your messed up self. Sometimes we do not know what to say or how to even begin, but the Bible tells us “In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.” (Romans 8:26 NIV) So just stand there, humbled in reverence to God, and allow the Holy Spirit to intercede, allow Jesus to advocate, and humble your heart to receive God’s forgiveness. Make today your day, the day that you ask God to fix you.
As a professional, Mrs. Khalilah Burton is a university administrator . She is also currently pursuing a Doctorate of Education in Community College Leadership. Khalilah is passionate about her faith journey and uses this key scripture as her inspiration: “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” (Romans 8:28 NIV) Khalilah also serves as a guest speaker and panelist for various events for women and Christian empowerment. Her passion for servant-hood is implemented through serving her community with Girl Scouts and her sorority, mentoring young women, and marriage empowerment. She resides in Daphne, Alabama with her wonderful husband Donald Burton, Jr. and their two daughters. Currently, they are seeking a church home in their new city.