How easy is it to constantly think of the benefits of being a child of God? I love thinking of my Daddy and how amazing He is. I grew up without a father, and the day that it finally clicked that I had a Heavenly Father, everything changed. It took a while, but eventually I was able to trust God as my father, knowing that I can trust Him to lead me where I am to go. I love sitting at His feet, spending time with Him. I love the intimacy in our Daddy/daughter relationship. So, imagine the level of shock I had the day the Holy Spirit revealed to me that I had an “entitlement issue”. “Me, Daddy? ENTITLED??!”
Entitlement: The belief that one is inherently deserving of special privileges or treatment.
Now, don’t get me wrong. We do receive special treatment, God’s favor, as children of God. However, that’s not what the Holy Spirit was revealing to me about myself. Even though I had been faithful in serving in church, at some point (unbeknownst to myself) everything had become about me. How often does this happen among believers? We are faithful in following God and are being faithful in what He is instructing us to do, yet suddenly volunteering to clean the bathrooms at the church seems like a job for the janitor. God, why do I have to be the person to miss ANOTHER Sunday service because no one else signed up to volunteer in the nursery this morning? Why does the pastor have us raising money for sister so-and-so while we still have people in this church that are struggling and needing help…like ME?! Suddenly, prayers fuel from your flesh instead of moving according to what the Spirit wants you to operate in. One day you may look up and realize that even your worship is about you. You’re basing your mood off of what song the worship leader is singing or if you’re favorite worship leader is singing.
“Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, who, though He was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but emptied himself, by taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men. And being found in human form, He humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross. (Philippians 2: 3-8 NIV)
“He must increase, but I must decrease.” (John 3:30 ESV)
When God showed me this, I knew something needed to change. Immediately I started praying for humility in my life. I started noticing opportunities in which I was tested, and sometimes I would pass those tests, and other times I wouldn’t, but I learned to chalk up every opportunity as a lesson. God had to reveal to me that my “Yes” to Him was not for me, but for THEM! My life was mapped out from the beginning of time for the purpose of the people who I am to touch and to lead back to Him and not for my own glory, but for HIS! How could I weep for nations when I am so focused on how my own selfish prayers aren’t being answered? How do I touch my co-workers when I operate so much out of my flesh that now I can’t STAND the sight of them?
The reward for humility and fear of the Lord is riches and honor and life. (Proverbs 22: 4 ESV)
“Whoever exalts himself will be humbled, and whoever humbles himself will be exalted.” (Matthew 23:12 NIV)
Thank You that You love me enough to not leave me where I am. Thank You for taking the blinders of selfishness off and introducing me back to the person You’ve called me to be. Continue to teach me a new level of humility, the same humility that Jesus exhibited while on this Earth. Give me a deeper revelation of what my “yes” to You really means for my life. Thank You that You are just so awesome, Father. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
Today, I EMPOWER you to uncover those areas of your life in which you are selfish. Ask God to reveal areas in which you’ve forgotten the reason behind your “yes”. Invite Him back in by decreasing yourself and increasing His presence. You don’t have to be seen. No one has to know your name. You just have to be a willing vessel that He can use. Be encouraged! As you humble yourself, He will exalt you!
Alexis Perry lives in Hamilton, Alabama where she is a full-time student at The Ramp School of Ministry. She has a passion for seeing women and youth find their true identity in Christ. She aspires to have a women’s ministry centered around true identity, adoption into God, and intimacy with the Father. One of her favorite passages is Psalm 139: 1-3 (ESV), “O Lord, You have searched me and known me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways.”