This month is National Poetry Month and in honor and snaps of it, our EmpowerMoments will feature short poems relative to each writer’s topic. So enjoy and be encouraged!
Know His plans for you
It’s not a competition.
There’s nothing to win.
I’ve always been an extremely competitive person. Whether it be in playing a sport, winning a board game, or seeing who could hold their breath the longest, I’ve always had that competition spirit within me. This past August when I started my first year of ministry school, I started noticing the backlash of that competition spirit. Initially, I was extremely introverted because it was a time for me to sit back, watch, and see what I could “discern” about those around me. Depending on how bad everyone else was, I would then use what I’d “discerned” as a means of determining how much God could use someone else in relations to how much He could use me. Crazy, right?? In a way, I was almost weeding people out based on issues that they were currently working on. I was actually anticipating other people’s downfalls!
“Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others,” (Philippians 2: 3-4 ESV)
It is crazy that something as small as a yearning to want to win a game, over the years, had sprouted into a full-blown issue concerning my own insecurities and jealousies. I learned very quickly that that ugly spirit had to come out! Nothing I was doing stemmed from love for those around me! There was no way I was going to be effective in advancing the Kingdom if I was too busy being jealous over what He was doing for everyone else. The Holy Spirit revealed to me that I wanted the manifestations of heaven, but I didn’t want to put in the prayer, time, and effort. So, when others around me would get their blessings, my jealousies would stem from me not knowing what God had for me due to my lack of time spent with Him. If I had known His plans for me, there would have been no reason to feel as if I were in competition with anybody else. Sister, don’t you think it’s a little silly to be in a constant mental and spiritual competition with someone who God has called to be a missionary in India while He’s called you to lead a women’s ministry in North Dakota?
I thank You for the unique gifting and anointing that You’ve placed inside of each and every one of us. I thank You that we do not have to compete with one another for what You’ve already set in motion in our lives. Father, give us a genuine grace to embrace one another’s successes and a joy to rejoice with one another. Thank You for the things You have called us to do with our lives. I pray that as we spend time with You, You will reveal the plans that You have for our lives so we don’t have to compete with someone else for things You’ve never intended for us to have. We love You, and we trust what You’re doing. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
Ladies, I EMPOWER you to take a good look at yourself. Ask God to reveal parts of yourself in which you may operate out of competition. There’s nothing wrong with a little friendly competition, but when the spirit within you won’t allow you celebrate someone else’s victory, it’s time for a heart check. You cannot properly love someone into the Kingdom of God while secretly celebrating their failures.
Alexis Perry lives in Hamilton, Alabama where she is a full-time student at The Ramp School of Ministry. She has a passion for seeing women and youth find their true identity in Christ. She aspires to have a women’s ministry centered around true identity, adoption into God, and intimacy with the Father. One of her favorite passages is Psalm 139: 1-3 (ESV), “O Lord, You have searched me and known me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways.”