A couple of mornings ago, I was looking for something in my car, and I ran across a book I’d bought a year ago. While flipping through the pages of the book, I found a torn notecard I wrote that said, “I met God who slowly, painfully, and divinely pieced me back together again.” Immediately, I started to reminisce on the difficult times, headaches, and heartaches that led up to the person I am today, and I couldn’t help but to thank God. There was a time, when I first got saved, that I almost traded in my salvation card because living in the world seemed SO much easier than being saved. At least, I didn’t have this target on my back that the enemy was constantly aiming for. Now, I can look back and almost sit in awe at how beautiful the process has been. Every difficult season was a season spent at Daddy’s feet, crying out to Him and praying in my personal intimate time.
Before I got saved, I spent my life tearing the very fabric of who God had created me to be. With every party, every drink, every guy, I was completely shredding who I was. “You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me,” (Psalm 139: 5, ESV) It wasn’t enough for me to just get saved. God had to completely change who I was. I needed to reflect Him. He had to go behind me and hem the fabric I’d ripped in the process of finding myself in this world. He’s gone before us, even before the beginning of time, to make sure that we’re hemmed into what He has for us. “My frame was not hidden from you, when I was made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there were none of them,” (Psalm 139: 15-16 ESV). He lays His hand on our lives. The very God that SPOKE creation into existence cares to lay HIS hands on MY life?! On YOUR life?! Sigh, just beautiful.
Thank You for the ability to find beauty in the process. Thank You that You love us past salvation, that You love us enough to not leave us where we were first found. Help us to strive to want to reflect You daily. When we’re having bad days, and we feel like we can’t go any further, remind us of how far we’ve come. Thank You for Your strength that is available to us. We love You. In Jesus’ name. Amen.
Ladies, I EMPOWER you to ask the Holy Spirit to reveal to you the beauty in your everyday process. Yes, living for God is not easy at all, but it is worth it. I pray God will reveal how well He has hemmed you in that when people hear your testimonies, they can’t even see the rips and tears that were once the core of who you were. I EMPOWER you to seek those intimate moments when they come. Satan, so badly, wants to steal your joy, your purpose, and your praise, but it’s hard to give him ground when you learn to find beauty in the difficult times.
Alexis Perry lives in Hamilton, Alabama where she is a full-time student at The Ramp School of Ministry. She has a passion for seeing women and youth find their true identity in Christ. She aspires to have a women’s ministry centered around true identity, adoption into God, and intimacy with the Father. One of her favorite passages is Psalm 139: 1-3 (ESV), “O Lord, You have searched me and known me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways.”