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I Am Free: The Love Letter

It’s Throwback Thursday! Enjoy this blast from the past. To commemorate our nation’s independence this week, we are featuring a series entitled “I Am Free”.  Read this week as our writers share how God has delivered them and set them free!

I am FREE from my past!

Dear God,

I have been hearing how people are so “blessed and highly favored” or “too blessed to be stressed” but Lord, I need to be real for a moment. I have been holding onto something and it is eating away at me. I am still mad that You birthed me to a crack head mother and a dead beat dad. I was probably a mistake and not even supposed to be here; I definitely could tell that I wasn’t wanted. I am still upset that You allowed my uncle to rape and molest me without coming to my rescue. How could You do this to me? All of this hurt and anger I have built up has made me to live a life full of mistakes, pain, and hurt. I made a mistake when I aborted those babies and I regret it every day. Are you punishing me, still? God, I am so sorry, but I didn’t know what to do; I didn’t know who the father was. I am so upset with myself for disappointing You. On top of all of this, the one woman I did love and whom I considered my mother, you took her away from me too. So how can I walk around as if I am blessed and highly favored? I’m hurting; I’m sad, mad, and angry. I feel left out Lord…I thought You loved me. I cry myself to sleep at night because I’m lonely and sad. I’m depressed at the thought of not being loved by anyone. I stick out; I don’t fit in, why am I like this?

Love, Your Wounded Baby Girl

Dear Daughter,

I chose your mother as a vessel to be used by me. Before you were created in her womb I knew the plan for your life, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11).  I took my time to knit you together (Psalms 139:13). I was there, although grieved, when you were sacrificed and your virtue stripped from you. But I am also a God of restoration. I heal the brokenhearted and I tend to your wounds. (Psalm 147:3) I made a promise to you that I am with you always even to the ends of the earth (Matthew 28:20) You say that you aren’t attractive, I say I made you in my image.(Genesis 1:27) I made you fearful and wonderful. (Psalms 139:14) I made your hair like lamb’s skin, your eyes like the sun, you lips full like ripened fruit, and your stature like the rolling hills. I made you on purpose, I made you like me…you are beautiful. My spirit was grieved when you aborted those babies and of course I also know of  your other wrong doings.  But remember that son I sacrificed? He shielded you with His blood and mercy and presented you to me faultless (Colossians 1:22) Walk in freedom my dear! Your earthly mother was my angel, she taught you how to fly, take care of yourself, and she showed you me. It was time for her to return so that you could do what I have for you to do. There are younger daughters that walk around in guilt and shame every day. Who can touch them but you? Who can show them that I can heal the wounded heart but you? Who can show them that a daughter of a crack head can be a Queen of Success, but you? My Son can plead on your behalf because He took on all sin. You can plead on someone else’s behalf because you have walked where they have walked. Don’t hold your victory, share your story to edify me that someone else, some hopeless little girl like you once were, can be saved. You were restored a long time ago, now walk in it. I love you.

Love, God

This letter was written from parts of my life and the various lives of women that I have encountered on my journey. As Christians we sometimes seem insane to believe and love a God that has allowed misfortune to happen to us. But what the devil meant for your bad, God will turn around for your good. Sister, know that God loves you and the triumphs we overcame are stalks of wisdom that can be used to heal and comfort someone else. And know this, all things work together for the good of them that love the Lord and are called according to his purpose (Romans 8:28). It takes time to heal, but in time you shall be healed.

Dear Daddy,

I know sometimes I get angry or ashamed of my past. “Hear my prayer, O Lord, and give ear to my cry; Do not be silent at my tears. (Psalms 39:12)”. Teach me how to let go so that I can use what You have implanted in me for Your Glory and to help someone else. I know that you are a rewarder of those that diligently seek You. Heal my wounds, and if they are already healed, strengthen me to walk in your boldness with liberty. Help me to bless someone that needs me; keep my eyes and ears sensitive to her call. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

Today, EMPOWER yourself by sharing with God all of your angers, fears, and disappointments and TRUST that His word will not return void.  Psalms 6:9 reminds us “The Lord heard my cry for mercy; the Lord accepts my prayer.” Start seeking to encourage and EMPOWER others that may be going through what you have OVERCOME. God has given you confirmation in His word that you are already restored and healed, for His word says, “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.” (Isaiah 43:18-19)

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As a professional, Mrs. Khalilah Burton is a College Biology Instructor. She is also currently pursuing a Doctorate of Education in Higher Ed and Community College Leadership. Khalilah is passionate about her faith journey and uses this key scripture as her inspiration: “But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” (Isaiah 40:31 KJV) She and her husband serve as Co-Service leaders and Co-Group leaders of SustainedLove, which supports marriage get-a-ways from Family Life. Khalilah also serves as a guest speaker and panelist for various events for women and Christian empowerment. Khalilah resides in Millbrook, Alabama with her wonderful husband Donald Burton, Jr. and their energetic four-year old daughter. They attend Vaughn Forest Church.  Check out Khalilah’s Christian weight loss blog here.

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Abortion, God's Love, Grief, Self Forgiveness, Sin, Spiritual Therapy

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I took one last glance at the clock before the doctor instructed me to start the countdown.  I did as I was told and began 10…9…8…7…6…5… The next thing I remembered was waking up in the recovery room.  The procedure was over and my anesthesia had worn off yet only twenty minutes had elapsed.  It wasn’t until the nurse came to check on me that I remembered exactly what I had done… I had just aborted my unborn child! 

I found out that I was pregnant a month prior and that very day I made up my mind that I was NOT having a baby out of wedlock.  I was of age where I could have taken on the responsibility without a doubt but I was too selfish to do so.  I was in a relationship with the father but I refused to go through this struggle with a man I had only been dating a few months.  Basically, I came up with every reason as to why this was the best solution to my problem but truthfully the real battle was yet to come.

“Jesus replied ‘No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom.’”(Luke 9:62 NIV) I was certain that I had handled my business but I was having the hardest time forgiving myself and forgetting it ever happened.  The enemy used the un-forgiveness in my heart to infect every aspect of my life.  I was still in a dead end relationship because I felt as if I owed him something because I never told him about the abortion.  I was finishing my last semester in school but I was clueless as to what was my next move would be in this game called life.  To top it off, I let God down and went against His Word in more ways than one.  However, as the above scripture stated, being consumed with looking in the past promotes missed opportunities to do kingdom work.  It is imperative to remember that we must not misconstrue the underlying message of the Word–our past does not dictate our future but we must NOT intentionally disobey God because of His promises. 

“No, brothers and sisters, I am still not all I should be, but I am focusing all my energies on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I strain to reach the end of the race and receive the prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us up to heaven.” (Philippians 3:13-14 NLT)

Ladies, I allowed the devil to control my life for years because I was afraid to forgive myself when God had already forgiven me.  I prolonged my walk into my destiny because I was determined to dwell on a bad decision.  Once I was able to shake the stronghold the devil had on me I was able to rejoice in the fact that I am not what I have done or the situations I’ve been through but rather I represent where I am headed- PROSPERITY!!

Dear Daddy,

Thank You for forgiving me even when I found it hard to forgive myself.  You have always been there for me and words can not express the joy that alone gives me.  Please help me keep my head forward, not looking back, so that I may be certain that I am doing the work needed to advance Your Kingdom.  No longer will I be a prisoner to my past but rather I am victorious because of YOU!  Thank You Daddy!!  In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

I encourage you to EMPOWER one another to leave the past behind and walk BOLDLY into your future!  Ladies, put your chin up, stick your chest out, and keep your back straight for the time is now to accept the calling on your life. No more pity parties with the enemy because its time to celebrate Jesus!!!  Be Blessed!!! 🙂

P.S. Since today is my last day as an EmpowerMoment writer,  I just want to thank all of the readers for allowing me to share my testimony with you. This experience has probably helped me just as much as I endeavored to help each of you. Being transparent has allowed me to walk into my destiny and completely line up with God’s will. Thank you for being apart of this journey. MUAH!

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Ms. Latasha Sampson is an accomplished writer who is currently pursuing her Masters Degree in Human Resources Management.  She resides in Nashville, Tennessee where she is a faithful member of Mt. Zion Baptist Church.  Her favorite scripture is “No weapon formed against you shall prosper, and every tongue which rises against you in judgment You shall condemn.” Isaiah 54:17