Finances, God's Provisons, Trusting God

Hold On

For the past month, I’ve been struggling financially. I was laid off twice last month. I was also laid off in May until I started working for summer camp. Over the summer, I worked in a dining hall feeding kids from various summer camps that were on a university campus. During my layoffs, I’ve been depending on my savings account to pay for my bills. I’m grateful that I had enough foresight to save the refund from my income tax. In addition, I received my unemployment so they have come in handy. Recently, I returned to work on August 10th (my birthday).

When I experienced my lay off at the end of July, I had a moment of despair because things weren’t going the way that I wanted them to. I didn’t receive my unemployment as quickly as I thought I would. My last day of work for summer camp was on July 22nd. Summer camp was supposed to end on July 31st. So it ended earlier than I thought it would. Lately, I’ve been having more money going out than I had coming in. I have been really stressed about it and trying my best to keep up with my bills.

2nd Corinthians 4:8-9 NLT states “We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair. We are hunted down, but never abandoned by God. We get knocked down, but we are not destroyed.” This scripture remind me that even though I’m going through a lot right now, God is with me. I’m still standing despite my situation. Romans 5:3-5 NLT states, “We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.” This scripture tells me that trials are normal but out of our trials we begin to develop things inwardly that make us stronger and better. These scriptures encourage me to hold on because not only am I getting stronger but help is on the way.

Dear Daddy,

Thank You for not abandoning me when things get rough. Help me to remember that You’re omnipresent and that You’re with me at all times. Give me the strength to endure everything that is thrown my way. Help me to lean more on You and less on my own understanding. Bless me with the job that I need and help me to appreciate the one I have. Bless my finances and my mental stability. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

Ladies I EMPOWER you to be encouraged. Remember that trials are normal but they won’t last always. Hold on to God’s word in your heart and know that God is with you no matter what you’re going through. Hold on

How do you hold on in tough times?

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Venus Gilmore currently resides in Auburn, AL. She is an alumna of Auburn University. Venus has B.A. in Sociology with a concentration in Social Organization and Inequality with a minor in Social Work. She plans on pursuing a career in Social Services. She currently serves as the Mamie Reese Scholarship Director, and College Transition Program Director of her sorority Theta Phi Sigma Christian Sorority, Inc. Venus is also a blogger for Radical7even. She is an active Client Advocate volunteer for the Women’s Hope Medical Clinic. She successfully balances all of these responsibilities with her favorite scripture as motivation: “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” (Philippians 4:13)

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Finances, Generosity, Gratefulness

The Blessing In Giving

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In everything I did, I showed you that by this kind of hard work we must help the weak, remembering the words the Lord Jesus himself said: ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive. (Acts 20:35 New International Version).

I need a blessing, a financial one preferably.  In this day and age, who doesn’t need one?  Sometimes I fantasize about meeting a long-lost, super rich relative who would want nothing more than to shower me with money and gifts.  I have high hopes of winning the lottery one day.  However, I have not bought a lottery ticket.  My fantasies clash with reality and God’s plans for me, and frustration and prideful thoughts come in.  For example, why do I have to get up at 4:30 in the morning for work when no one else in the house is working or why am I wrecking my brain trying to figure out a grocery budget for a family of six when I don’t have a husband or children.  I ask why me, but perhaps the question should be why not me.  After all, two of my relatives (uncle and sister) are physically and or mentally disabled with a third (my brother) showing signs of a mental disability also.  My mom has to be the care taker of my uncle and sister and leaving them alone is not a good option.

If anyone does not provide for his relatives, and especially for his immediate family; he has denied the faith and is worse than an unbeliever. (1Timothy 5:8 NIV).

While I am waiting for a blessing to fall out of the sky, I am missing my blessing and the opportunity to give God honor and praise.  At one point, I wasn’t working and I was depressed and ashamed because I wasn’t helping out around the house.  Now that I have a job why should I complain?  Recently, I decided to stop complaining about being the only one in the house that everyone depends on.  Instead, I believe God has blessed me with a job to help the household.  So, I pray he gives me the knowledge and wisdom to be a good steward over what he has entrusted me with.  Being grateful and accepting of God’s plan has helped me give more in a humble and joyful matter.

Dear Daddy, 

All praises, glory, and honor are unto You.  I pray that You help me to give in a way that strengthens, not weakens my family, and in a way that glorifies You.  In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

Ladies I EMPOWER you to give.  I am able to provide because I have a job; however, the gift doesn’t have to be money. It could be time, knowledge, wisdom, your testimony, your joy or to sum it all up—love, the same love God has showed his children when he sacrificed his only Son.   Each time the opportunity arises to help someone it is a blessing from God.

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Saneatra Polk resides on the south side of Chicago and works as a quality technician for a food manufacturer. She attends The Moody Church and her favorite Bible verse is: “The Lord is my helper, I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?” (Hebrews 13:6 NIV)

Best of 2011 Series, Finances, Tithing

Best of 2011: #8 – Where “Dem” Dollars At?

We are featuring our top EmpowerMoments of 2011. They made us laugh and they made us cry. They comforted us during troubled times and made us uncomfortable in our mess. But most important, they EMPOWERED us to be greater women all around! We are better wives, mothers, daughters, friends, servants and employees. We have been EMPOWERED to love harder, forgive more and listen better. We thank God for EmpowerMoments! Enjoy the Best of Series!

Literally, ask yourself, do I really know where my money is going? Furthermore, am I being a good steward over my money? Often times we can have money matters mixed up. For example, there is a difference between being able to afford something versus being able to pay for it; having wealth and having money; and budgeting versus balancing. The former tends to require effort and self control while the latter may have you broke, stressed, and unable to effectively manage your funds. When my husband and I married we had big dreams to ensure we followed all of the statutes learned in our marriage maintenance sessions prior to our wedding day. We knew that tithing was a big part of that. Unfortunately, the day after our wedding our financial life shattered. Not due to the wedding, thank God it was paid in cash, but due to an unexpected occurrence that changed our lives (another blog). So we ignored the thought of tithing because we couldn’t “afford” it. What we noticed, shortly after our “bright idea” was that our money started to become extremely tight. It almost seemed as if it was infected. And according to Malachai 3:8-11, it was infected. We could not get past our swamp of bills because we were being disobedient.

“Will a mere mortal rob God? Yet you rob me.  “But you ask, ‘How are we robbing You?’  “In tithes and offerings. You are under a curse—your whole nation—because you are robbing Me. Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in My house. Test Me in this,” says the LORD Almighty, “and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that there will not be room enough to store it. I will prevent pests from devouring your crops, and the vines in your fields will not drop their fruit before it is ripe,” says the LORD Almighty. (Malachai 3:8-11)

At one time, we reached a really low point financially, so we came up with another bright idea to “tithe.” (Insert chuckle here.) We were convicted with money maintenance and gave God our issue. He gave us a heart to tithe. (Pause) When you tithe, it is an act of worship. It has absolutely nothing to do with the Pastor, the Deacons, or the Trustees and what you perceive they are doing with the money. God gave “you” a command to fill His storehouse. After you’ve done your part, that’s all you need to worry about. If you truly believe that God is a just God, you will also trust that He will deal with those that mishandle holy things. Don’t get caught up in judging someone else or you will be judged in the same way. If you need to search for a new church home, etc. that’s one thing, but don’t disobey tithing because of your criticism.

Girlfriend, there is a difference between affording something and being able to pay for it. If you have to shuffle your bills and suffer your budget to purchase something, then you “can’t” afford it. Better yet, if you don’t have a budget, you need to get one fast. We have to learn to live within our means. Does this mean you can’t buy nice things? No. One of my family members has an affinity for authentic Gucci, Prada, Louis Vuitton, and the list goes on; however, she budgets her money by saving throughout the year before she goes on her fashion frenzies.

I want to encourage you to make smart decisions with your money. Don’t take the scripture “Do not worry about tomorrow” out of context. It’s about worry, not about wise financial preparation. Be smart about preparing for hard times, “Go to the ant, you sluggard; consider its ways and be wise! It has no commander, no overseer or ruler, yet it stores its provisions in summer and gathers its food at harvest.” (Proverbs 6:6-8).

I don’t want you to think you are to center your life and focus around money. But we should be good stewards of it. Are you leaving an inheritance for your children? Can you pay for a flat tire or collision without borrowing money? If you are snowed in, can you feed your family for a week or three (don’t mistake this for greed or hoarding)? Can you own your home or car? If you lose your job, can you manage your household for, at minimum, three months? This has nothing to do with status, but everything to do with the ability to manage your funds.

Dear Daddy,

You know that finances are a thorn in my side and I am thankful to know that You have set out a map for me, in Your Word, to follow. Help me to grow in this area realizing that I have to tithe to You out of obedience and to give to the needy as an offering of love, also through obedience. Help me to be a good steward and to think before I swipe, and pray before I purchase. Help me keep it in order. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

Ladies, I EMPOWER you today to look at your pocket book and do a self examination. Am I being a good steward over my funds? Am I tithing? Am I giving to those that need it? Is my house financially in order?

There are thousands of formulas and programs to use to help you manage your funds. My husband is a Dave Ramsey fan, so we use the envelope method. But here is our simple and easy Excel program we use monthly, and sometimes weekly. Sometimes it’s thin (or even invisible) and sometimes it’s okay. But at least we know where our money is going, how we can improve, and what changes we need to make to fix the bumps of last month. Download it here and enter your numbers! Sample Budget

The Proverbs 31 Woman had it right, read her passage here.

Read a related EmpowerMoment: What Do You Have to Offer?

As a professional, Mrs. Khalilah Burton is College Biology Instructor. She is also currently pursuing a Doctorate of Education in Higher Ed and Community College Leadership. Khalilah is passionate about her faith journey and uses this key scripture as her inspiration: “But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” (Isaiah 40:31 KJV) She teaches Young Adult Bible Study and Sunday School and also serves as a guest speaker and panelist for various events for women and Christian empowerment.  Khalilah resides in Millbrook, Alabama with her wonderful husband Donald Burton, Jr. and their energetic three-year old daughter. They attend St. Luke Christian ChurchCheck out Khalilah’s Christian weight loss blog here.

Finances, Gratefulness, Health/Sickness, Inspirational, Praise/Worship, Stress, Trials

Get Up and Dance!

Let’s face it. The holiday season is supposed to be jolly, hopeful, fun, and filled with moments of joy with friends and family. But the reality is that along with this intention, the truths of this year’s events often settle here. You all of a sudden realize you are cuddling up by your fireplace without a companion or you miss your loved one dearly who passed away earlier this year or even 7 years ago. As January approaches, you realize the goals you set forth are nowhere near being completed, or started in some cases. Quite frankly, you just feel overwhelmed with the financial pressures of trying to decide to purchase gifts or tithe, or to skip your car payment to try and visit your family members.

I’m reminded through various instances in the Bible where situations seemed quite grim, but these biblical role models chose to make the best out of their situations. Let’s first look at Ruth. The interesting thing about this story is it begins when Ruth is mourning the death of her husband. But throughout her misery she made a life changing decision. She told her mother in law, “Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God.” (Ruth 1:16 NIV) They settled into a new country, just at the beginning of the harvest season. Now what’s interesting here is that just when Ruth was faced with the death of her husband and painfully close to being sent away by the only woman that cared for her, she pressed through, dusted herself off and entered into a new land…just when the harvest was beginning, and she didn’t even know it. The story goes on to mention how she was blessed from the remnants of the harvest and met a husband. What if she decided to call it quits in the midst of her pity party? She wouldn’t have experienced the harvest.

Let’s look at the woman with the issue of blood. “A large crowd followed and pressed around him. And a woman was there who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years. She had suffered a great deal under the care of many doctors and had spent all she had, yet instead of getting better she grew worse. When she heard about Jesus, she came up behind him in the crowd and touched his cloak, because she thought, “If I just touch his clothes, I will be healed.” Immediately her bleeding stopped and she felt in her body that she was freed from her suffering.” (Mark 5:24-29 NIV) Now I don’t know about you, but twelve years of bleeding could definitely weigh on my faith and my strength to be the least bit optimistic about being healed. But she made a decision. She thought if she could just touch the hem of His cloak, she would be healed. She got up, traveled, fought the crowds and made it to Jesus. “He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering.” (Mark 5:34 NIV) Now, what if she decided to call it quits in the midst of her pity party? She wouldn’t have experienced her healing.

So what do you do now? What do you do when you have decided to keep going for Jesus, even in the midst of sorrow and pain? You praise!! I am reminded of David and the Ark of God. I am so blessed by this story because David praised so hard that his wife started hating on him. “As the ark of the LORD was entering the City of David, Michal daughter of Saul watched from a window. And when she saw King David leaping and dancing before the LORD, she despised him in her heart.” (2 Samuel 6:16 NIV)  But David knew that God was in control of his life, his blessings, and his future. He praised, not when the Ark got there, but when the ark was on its way. David said to Michal, “It was before the LORD, who chose me rather than your father or anyone from his house when he appointed me ruler over the LORD’s people Israel—I will celebrate before the LORD.  I will become even more undignified than this, and I will be humiliated in my own eyes. But by these slave girls you spoke of, I will be held in honor.” (2 Samuel 6:21-22 NIV)

I want to encourage you to praise on your way to your harvest and on your way to your healing. You may get hated on, but I dare you to be bold and do like David, Get up and DANCE!!

Dear Daddy,

For every woman reading this EmpowerMoment, I pray that You empower them through this holiday season and remind us that this is the season to celebrate the goodness of life You have blessed us with. Help us to find joy in giving and strength in enjoying the smiles and love of those around us. Help us not to focus on the things we don’t have, but the abundance You have already given us. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

Ladies, I EMPOWER you today to get up and dance! Dance out of your misery, your pain, your anguish, your loneliness, and insecurities. John 8:36 NIV reminds us, “if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.” You are free from these things that bind you. Dance and let the liberation of God carry you through!

As a professional, Mrs. Khalilah Burton is College Biology Instructor. She is also currently pursuing a Doctorate of Education in Higher Ed and Community College Leadership. Khalilah is passionate about her faith journey and uses this key scripture as her inspiration: “But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” (Isaiah 40:31 KJV) She teaches Young Adult Bible Study and Sunday School and also serves as a guest speaker and panelist for various events for women and Christian empowerment. Khalilah resides in Millbrook, Alabama with her wonderful husband Donald Burton, Jr. and their energetic three-year old daughter. They attend St. Luke Christian ChurchCheck out Khalilah’s Christian weight loss blog here.

Attitude, Blessings, Contentment, Finances, Gratefulness, Inspirational

Prioritize

I have been struggling with what to write all week. I just started a new job and have been learning the ropes on that. Then I found out the pay is done a bit differently than I originally thought. So although I work from November 1- November 30, I will only receive payment for the first two weeks. Which is fine, but I didn’t understand that concept before I did my budget for this month. Oops! I went into straight panic mode. Many thoughts started rushing through my head: Cell phone bill is due in a week. Baby needs more diapers. Wait– that means that first check is going straight to rent…

Then I came across Isaiah 41:10, So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” (NIV) And I remembered that not getting the money I budgeted for at the end of the month is not the end of the world. My child is going to be taking care of and so will I. But why was my first reaction to question God?

I realized that I do not have my priorities right. I am focused on the wrong things. My job (no matter if I was making millions of dollars) is not my source. God is. He provided the job, the knowledge and skills I needed to get the job. So why had I panicked? Because, this situation wasn’t perfect. It wasn’t how I imagined it. I imagined a seamless transition from my last job to this one. I thought I had done what the scriptures said and counted the cost.  “Suppose one of you wants to build a tower. Will he not first sit down and estimate the cost to see if he has enough money to complete it? (Luke 14:28 NIV) Alas, you cannot plan for exactly everything. And that’s life. But one thing I do know is my son is healthy and so am I. Every day I have a home to go to that is in a peaceful neighborhood. When I have a bad day, I can call and get advice from both my mother and father, because they are both still alive. I am surrounded by people that would never allow me to go hungry, or my son to go without diapers. So if I really had the need, guess what, I have a support system. There are so many people without a support system, without a home, or without a healthy child. And they still have hope, peace and joy. So why do the hiccups of life steal that from me? Because I honestly still think I have control over my life. Your life can change in an instant at no fault of your own. Ask someone who lost their house because a neighbor fell asleep smoking, or a family who has buried their child because a drunk driver hit them on the way to church. Due to no fault of your own, your life can change. The only thing you can control is your reaction.

Another great thing to do is help those whose lives have been affected by things out of their control. This year for my birthday I will be hosting a registration/drive for two agencies near to my heart. I will be hosting a registration for bone marrow donors and raising money for Invisible Children. Helping others is the best way to show your appreciation to God. I would love for each of you to find a cause that you are passionate about; it will help you prioritize your life. I first got the idea for bone morrow from a two year old girl named Starla who is battling Leukemia. To join her prayer team, click the links below.

Dear Daddy,

Thank You for all the wonderful blessings in my life. Help me to not become discouraged when my life doesn’t turn out how I planned. Help me to refocus in an area that will bring You Glory. Continue to bless those who are struggling with various obstacles in their lives. We pray for Your peace, wisdom and strength as they go through their storms. Let us not be so caught up in our own issues that we miss the real reason You called us, to be witnesses of Your Love. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

Blessed Ladies of God, I EMPOWER you to examine your life. Look at the stressors you have and see if any of them are worth the energy you are investing. Find a passion/cause that touches your heart and get active in helping someone else who really needs your support. Prior to writing this EmpowerMoment, I penned a poem of the same name: Prioritize the Poem

To join the Starla Prayer Group click here:  http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=174438839301375

For more information on bone marrow donation visit: http://www.marrow.org/

For more information on Invisible Children:  http://www.invisiblechildren.com/

Ms. Renee` N. Chaffin is a single mother who has a heart for helping those less fortunate. She has been active in the non-profit sector, whether through volunteerism or professionally, for the past six years.  She is passionate about sharing the love of God, her testimony and empowering people to discover their true potential that was bestowed on them by King of the Universe. Renee` is currently pursuing a Master’s in Public Administration. While on her pursuit of higher education, she is on a seven year journey to challenge God to do ‘exceedingly and abundantly above all she can imagine’ in seven areas over the next seven years. Check out her journey at http://radical7even.wordpress.com. Her favorite scripture is I Peter 5:6: “Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.”

Decision Making, Direction/Guidance, Finances, Growth/Maturity, Marriage, Preparation

In Preparation

Lately I have been a bit overwhelmed with life and the issues that it brings. I feel like I am leisurely walking through a slow moving storm. The rain isn’t stopping and the thunder is rolling. An emotional rollercoaster doesn’t quite capture the essence of my state of mind but as I begin to sulk about these feelings, I hear a small voice tell me “This is what you asked for; it’s your preparation.” There was a time when I just prayed and as my requests were granted I would realize that I wasn’t truly prepared for that “thing” that I asked for. Looking back, have you ever been there? I pray for financial increase but can I really manage money in a way that honors God or am I still wasteful? For example, when I was in college, apparently I had “money to blow.” After I graduated I saw a financial statement that indicated the tens of thousands of dollars that I received over the years in “refund checks.” I can’t put my finger on one tangible item from that time period. All I can think of are the “could’ve, should’ve, would’ves.” I don’t want to make those same mistakes with the requests that I have laid before Him now so I always ask God to prepare me for my “asks.”

“…My son, do not make light of the Lord’s discipline, and do not lose heart when he rebukes you, because the Lord disciplines the one he loves, and he chastens everyone he accepts as his son.”Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as his children. For what children are not disciplined by their father? Hebrews 12:5-7 NIV

Among my many desires I ask God to prepare me for are my husband, my children, financial increase and deliverance for family members. That’s not so bad, right? Well, herein lies the problem. I thought that preparation meant showing me where I may be lacking in some areas and helping me improve. No, it’s more than that. This preparation phase has taken some discipline and correction from Him. It has meant letting go of people in my life, making tough decisions about family and the resurgence of suppressed memories and issues that were buried in the deep crevices of my mind. This is NOT what I was expecting! It’s sometimes painful and lonely but that small still voice has deemed it necessary. (Remember the Olive Press) Remove all of that “stuff” and grant me knowledge and understanding…

The ear that heareth the reproof of life abideth among the wise. He that refuseth instruction despiseth his own soul: but he that heareth reproof getteth understanding. Proverbs 15:31-32 KJV 

How can I be a good wife and mother when I am not mentally prepared to fully show up in a relationship, much less a marriage? How can I create generational wealth and become a billionaire when I can’t manage being a “dollaraire?”  How can I make tough choices when I shy away from ones that should be easy? In this time of preparation, my thoughts are challenged and I am questioning the way I handle some things. Okay God, I get it! You can and will grant the “ask” but if I learn and take the time to be molded in YOUR preparation phase, I will have the maturity to manage my requests once fulfilled.

Dear Daddy,

Thank You for showing me that Your thoughts are higher than my thoughts and Your ways are higher than my ways (Isaiah 55:8-9 KJV). Continue to prepare me so that I can bask in the future that You have for me. Although the preparation phase can be painful help me to grow from it and mature so that I can act with wisdom when the time comes. Prepare me so that I can be the best me with each request that I ask of You. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

Ladies, I EMPOWER you with the understanding that you do indeed get what you pray for but sometimes you can be unprepared for it. I EMPOWER you to endure the preparation phase and learn the lessons so that you can be fully present when God grants you the desires of your heart.

For more information about preparation, read the entire 3-day Olive Press Series and In Preparation…It’s More than Just Spiritual.

Ms. Chancee` Lundy currently resides in Atlanta, GA and is a small business co-owner of Nspiregreen, LLC an environmental consulting firm. She is also a dedicated daughter, sister, friend, community servant, and child of God. She is passionate about causes that truly uplift the community. One of her favorite scriptures is Hebrews 11:6: “And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.”

Encouragement, Finances, God's Promises, God's Provisons, Inspirational, Marriage, Singleness, Trusting God, Worry

All About the Benjamins

By my 30th birthday I wanted to be married or at least in a much fulfilled relationship, making at least 60k+ a year, driving my dream car, and pursuing my marketing dreams.  Yet, I’m not in a “titled” relationship, I’m making half of my dream salary, my car needs a much needed paint job, and I’m not working in marketing nor pursuing those dreams.  It really feels like I missed my mark when it comes to my heart’s desires.  I feel like I’m at a point in my life where my struggles should be non existent.  I should be the lender and not the borrower.  It would feel good for once to not have the order the cheapest item on the menu or always order water because I’m trying to save a dime.  It’s so bad I even do it on dates, trying to save them money!  I feel like nothing is right at 30 because my Benjamins are funny.

Two years ago I lost a very good paying job due to the economy and I started drowning.  Since then, I seem to not have reached dry land.  I used to have the best credit score but now I’m falling behind on bills and can’t seem to catch up. Yet I’m still positive; yet I’m still attending church; yet I still tithe (when I can) and I treat everyone right. But it’s still so very hard.  I look around at my circle of friends and see them doing big things and going places.  I can’t help but wonder when that will be me.  Did I cause this on myself?  Maybe it’s because I talked to that man or because I don’t pray every night on my knees or because I still drink socially.  Im left wondering what am I doing wrong that’s affecting my Benjamins.

I’ve started looking for a part time job, but how can I do that?  I have a full time job and I’m a full time mother and with no physical help from my son’s father, that idea is null and void.  I started to doubt myself and my situation from getting any better until one day I read Matthew 8: 23-27: And when he got into the boat, his disciples followed him.  And behold, there’s arose a great storm on the sea, so that the boat was being swamped by the waves, but he was asleep.  And they went and woke him saying. “Save us, Lord; we are perishing.” And he said to them, “why are you afraid o you of little faith?”  Then he rose and rebuked the winds and the sea and there was a great calm. And the men marveled, saying, “What sort of man is this, that even winds and sea obey him?” (ESV)

I knew then that God knew I would be in this situation before the situation found me. Daniel 2:21 says,” He changes times and seasons.” (ESV)

I began to feel like David in Psalms 27:13, “I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.” (ESV)

God has promised me so much and I’m standing on His promises.  On Oct. 13, 2011, the day I turned 30 years old, I didn’t have a marriage or a fulfilled relationship, but my son was alive and well. I wasn’t making 60k+ a year, but I had food on my table and a roof over my head. I wasn’t driving my dream car, but I didn’t have to walk wherever I wanted to go. I wasn’t pursuing my dreams of marketing, but I did have a job.  My Benjamins had nothing on that!

Jaden & I enjoying life!

Dear Daddy,

I love You and I thank You for mapping out my life.  You know what’s best for me and You know the destiny that’s mine.  Help me not to give up when my heart and mind gets weary.  Thank You for the hard times and when the good times come back around, only You will receive all my praises.  Strengthen my faith, for I know my best days are ahead of me. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

Ladies, I EMPOWER you to not focus on the Benjamins for God is our resource that is never ending.  When it gets tough, always remember God is a rewarder to those that earnestly seek Him.  Much Love Ladies!

Ms. Hassanah White is a dedicated member of Faith Walkers Church in Birmingham, Alabama where their motto is to “Walk it out by Faith.”  She also serves as a member of the Praise Dance Ministry.  Hassanah is a true professional in the realm of marketing and customer service.  She’s a proud mother of a very energetic little boy named Jaden.  Hassanah believes laughter and prayer are the best medicines for any situation.  Her favorite scripture is Hebrews 11:6: “And without Faith it is impossible to please GOD, because anyone who comes to Him must BELIEVE that He exists and that He REWARDS those who earnestly seek Him.”