When I walk into a room, people usually notice. I have a pretty large personality and a big smile. Although sometimes that smile becomes a big “unit” on my face. Whether I am in take over mode or chill mode, rarely do I go unnoticed. I’m 5’1” but I walk tall and act like I “own it.” I’ve never known people to question my self-esteem because I can put on quite a show…or at least I thought.
Your beauty should not come from outward adornment … Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight. (I Peter 3:3-4 NIV)
In a recent conversation, someone broke down many of the non-verbal and sometimes verbal things that illustrate some of my unhappiness on the inside. Granted we all have some bad days that we feel less than our best but what happens when those days turn into years. What happens when we let our inner beauty become tarnished with insecurities?
As I enter the room walking tall, my “invisible me” walks in too, head slightly bent but holding up signs for all to see. “This dress would look so much better minus 20lbs. What’s that…my girtle isn’t working?” “I really need a new purse cause this was so last season.” “My car is so out of date.” “Someone, please show me some attention!”
My invisible me is taking over! She questions my looks, my abilities and my accomplishments. She is killing me softly from the inside out.
I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. (Philippians 4:12 NIV)
This is how I look without makeup
And with no bra my ninny’s sag down low
My hair ain’t never hung down to my shoulders
And it might not grow
Ya’ never know
I got a little pot in my belly
So now a days my figure ain’t so fly
My dress ain’t cost nothin’ but seven dollars
But I made it fly
I have made an executive decision over my life. I am going to be content whether I have it or I don’t have it; whether I lose 0lbs this week or 2lbs this week; whether he calls me back or doesn’t call me back; whether my hair is long or short; whether there is money in the bank or it’s empty; whether I get the job or not; whether I get the recognition I deserve or someone else gets it; whether I get the new car I want or continue to roll in this some-timed car; whether my family and friends are with me or against me. I am burning all of the invisible signs and learning daily to work on “issues” without letting those issues control who I am as a person and dictate my life. From now on I want my invisible me to match the same confidence that I portray on the outside because I recognize that I am fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14 KJV)
Thank You for taking the time to make ME! Thank You for every blood vessel, capillary, microscopic cell, vein, organ and bone in my body. Your detail left nothing to chance and according to Your word in Psalms 139:14 I am a marvelous work because I am created by You. When I am feeling down about myself, remind me of who YOU are so that I will know who I am. Help me to focus and discipline to change the things in my life that need to change but also help me to be content as I work to change them. Help me to pay attention to my “invisible me” so that she is fully representative of the awesomeness that is You and that You have created in me. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
Today I EMPOWER you to do a self –check. What does your “invisible me” say about you? If it be God’s will, work on changing areas of your life where you have issues. As you make progress and even have some setbacks, I EMPOWER you to be content as you let the light from above radiate from the inside out.
Ms. Chancee` Lundy currently resides in Atlanta, GA and is an entrepreneur as she is the co-owner of Nspiregreen, LLC an environmental consulting firm. She is also a dedicated daughter, sister, friend, community servant, and child of God. She is passionate about causes that truly uplift the community. One of her favorite scriptures is Hebrews 11:6: And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.