Beautiful, gracious and kind! While those words do describe me well, today I am using them to portray my favorite heroine in the Bible. I have loved the story of Esther since I was a little girl. When the King was in search of a new wife, the word proclaims, She pleased him and won his favor. Immediately he provided her with her beauty treatments and special food. (Esther 2:9 NIV) She was a bad chick!…and I wanted to be JUST like her. To understand why I wanted to be like her let me tell you a little bit of her story as Queen.
Then Haman said to King Xerxes, “There is a certain people dispersed among the peoples in all the provinces of your kingdom who keep themselves separate. Their customs are different from those of all other people, and they do not obey the king’s laws; it is not in the king’s best interest to tolerate them. “Keep the money,” the king said to Haman, “and do with the people as you please.” Dispatches were sent by couriers to all the king’s provinces with the order to destroy, kill and annihilate all the Jews—young and old, women and children—on a single day….(Esther 3: 8,11, 13 NIV)
What the King didn’t know is that his own wife, Queen Esther, was a Jew. She hid her ethnicity from him when she was in the running to become the Queen. After finding out about the King’s orders her cousin Mordecai, who raised her, sent her a message to go to the King and plead for her peoples’ lives but at first she was reluctant.
When Esther’s words were reported to Mordecai, he sent back this answer: “Do not think that because you are in the king’s house you alone of all the Jews will escape. For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father’s family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?” (Esther 4:12-14 NIV)
Then Esther sent this reply to Mordecai:“Go, gather together all the Jews who are in Susa, and fast for me. Do not eat or drink for three days, night or day. I and my attendants will fast as you do. When this is done, I will go to the king, even though it is against the law. And if I perish, I perish.” Esther 4:15-16 NIV
Well, guess what? Esther did not perish and neither did her people. The story goes on to tell that her people were saved and celebrated and instead the mastermind behind the plot, Haman, was hung on gallows that he originally built for Mordecai.
There are many biblical themes that can be extracted from this text regarding faith, fear, sacrifice, God elevating you to use you and others; however, I am now realizing a more personal theme for myself. My grandmother called it long-eyed or your eyes being bigger than your stomach, meaning you wanted something someone else had even if you didn’t know what it was or had no particular use for it.
Every night, I would go to bed and pray that God would make me like Esther “a savior for my people, use me for such as time as this, Lord use me.” I wanted to be the one to pull my family out of the rut that I felt we were in and I was interested in self-sacrificing causes that uplifted humanity. While those may sound like noble requests, I now realize that I didn’t KNOW what I was praying for. As a child, I saw the glamorous part of Esther in that she was selected out of hundreds by the King to be his bride. She had the opportunity to change the fate of all of her people. People favored her. In the end she succeeded.
Recently my fascination with the story of Esther came to my memory and I realized that my life has taken a similar course and I thought, “Did I become a matriarch in my 20’s because I asked for it when I was 8?” I often find myself asking God, “WHY does everyone call me and depend on me (family and friends included)?” I get frustrated because it seems as though everyone is relying on me and there is so much pressure to make decisions that quite honestly I’d rather not. I’ve reached a point of acceptance and pray for wisdom and guidance because maybe I too have been called for such a time as this. If this is how God chooses to use me, let me be excited about it. The lesson in this is to KNOW what you are petitioning God for. Are you requesting the “desires” of your heart out of envy or because it “looks good”? That man, new car, job, new house, or friendship may look excellent on someone else but you don’t know what they had to go through to get it or to keep it. Everything simply isn’t for everybody! When you petition the true Savior, check your motives and your readiness!
Thank You for being a God that answers prayers! Remind us to pray righteous prayers so that when we get what we ask for, we aren’t upset when we don’t get the outcome that we thought we would have. Give us the wisdom to see ALL of the attributes of what we may consider a “blessing” before we make our request known to You. Let us not be long-eyed! In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
Today I EMPOWER you to continue to seek God about YOUR future and purpose and not the one that belongs to someone else. If you find yourself in a situation where you are The One, walk in it boldly without fear and ask God to grant you the discernment, wisdom, and capacity that comes with the territory.
Ms. Chancee` Lundy currently resides in Atlanta, GA and is a small business co-owner of Nspiregreen, LLC an environmental consulting firm. She is also a dedicated daughter, sister, friend, community servant, and child of God. She is passionate about causes that truly uplift the community. One of her favorite scriptures is Hebrews 11:6: And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.