Attitude, Blessings, Contentment, Goals & Dreams, Growth/Maturity, Patience

Confessions From an Impatient Christian

I have a confession!  It’s not a confession of hope in Christ or the kind that Christians get excited and teary eyed about.  In fact, it involves a characteristic that is often overlooked, swept under the rug, or dismissed as being human or natural.  My confession is…I LACK PATIENCE!!!

Lacking patience can appear to be no big deal but what I have discovered (and accepted not very easily) is that God desires for His daughters to exercise patience.  Ugh!  Yes, it’s sad but true.  God wants us to be patient.  Throughout scripture, we are consistently charged to “Be patient” (James 5:7-8; 1 Thessalonians 5:14) and to “Wait on the Lord” (Psalm 37; Psalm 27:14; Proverbs 20:22).  Now, while waiting on God sounds pious and ideal, the reality is that waiting sometimes makes you want to scream.  It’s like waiting in traffic or standing in line behind the person that’s moving like a snail.  Everything in you wants to yell out MOVE NOW!

I admit that there have been times where I waited upon God with ease.  However, there are many more times where I felt like God just wasn’t moving fast enough.  I recall how impatient I was after graduating and passing the bar.  Here I was this bright, accomplished, 25 year old lawyer with much ambition but no job.  Yes, you heard me correctly.  I had made it through law school, passed the bar, but still was not employed.  To top things off, this was not a temporary matter.  It lasted 1 ½ years!  I remember feeling like I was at my breaking point—very frustrated with God because in my mind I had done all of those “Christian” things which entitled me to His blessings—when the Holy Spirit led me to Galatians 6:9: “And let us not be weary in well doing, for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.” (KJV)

Confession #2:  Although it came from God, I was not happy!  “What do you mean due season?  When is due?”  I can laugh at myself looking back, but at the time I was serious.  I was in no mood to wait.  When I realized that God would have it no other way, I began to study a devotional entitled “Waiting on God.”  The more that I studied, the more clearly I could see that not only was patience what God desired of me but it was also a privilege to wait upon the King of Kings.  After all, He was consistently waiting upon me.

Fast-forwarding– while waiting for a job, I landed an unpaid internship with an agency that I desperately wanted to work for.  I thought it was the perfect job.  I prayed about it, but as you probably guessed, it didn’t work out.  God moved me from the internship into private practice where he soon blessed me with my own firm.  It was such a great experience and after 2 years I thought the story had ended until a few days ago.  I was sitting in my office when I received a random call.  It was the supervisor from my internship (I had forgotten all about him and assumed he had forgotten about me).  He was calling to encourage me to apply for a job opening at the agency.  He stated that he had never forgotten about me and he went out of his way to make sure that I was notified. Wow!  I was speechless.

The following morning as I prepared for work, the Holy Spirit spoke again: “Things in life do come full circle if you are patient.”  Speechless again!  In that moment, God revealed to me just how faithful He is.  In spite of my lack of patience God demonstrated that He indeed works everything out in conformity with the purpose of His will. (Ephesians 1:11 KJV)

Dear Daddy,

Thank You for allowing me to confess my shortcomings.  Your word tells us that “If we confess our sins, [You are] faithful and just to forgive us our sin, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” (1 John 1:9 KJV).  Thank You for Your cleansing.  I admit that I lack patience, but I am grateful that in my lacking Your continual strength has allowed me to endure.  Father, help me daily to exercise patience.  Help me to remember that You desire me to have patience and that waiting upon You is not a burden but a privilege. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

Ladies, I EMPOWER you to walk with patience.   “Let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.” (James 1:4 KJV).  Continue to wait upon God and know that His will for your life is perfect.

Ms. Latasha McCrary is an active member of St. Luke Christian Church in Huntsville, AL where she serves as a Young Adult Facilitator and is training as a Life Skills Coach. She is passionate about the practice of law and views her profession as an extension of her calling to serve. Latasha firmly believes that “Service is the price we pay for the space we occupy” and is grateful for God’s continuing favor evidenced in her life. “By this I know that you favor me, because you have not let my enemies triumph over me.” (Psalms 41:11)